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I haven't been sleeping all too well... As a consequence, I've been terribly tired...

Sometimes I wonder if I should be meaner.

I'm quite mean in my head, often. I think very mean things about others, but I catch myself and correct my thoughts. I say things like "that person is an idiot" (I often used more intense words) but then correct myself to thinking "they probably just misunderstood something." That sort of things. "That person is an asshole" to "that person might be having a bad day."

I feel like that's the right thing to do. There's really no reason to believe that people are bad, there's nothing to gain in doing that and I'd argue there's actually much to lose. I'd argue, but I won't, as that's not the point of this post.

Continuing.

I wonder if it could be better to not do that as much. For example, sometimes people really are just idiotic assholes. Sometimes just idiots, sometimes just assholes, sometimes neither. However, couldn't it be correct to assume it, sometimes?

For example, I think the block button should be used. I'm a big proponent of blocking people. I've blocked people on Reddit, on Twitter, I think I've blocked people on Lemmy even, on TikTok, on YouTube (you can't actually block people, I don't think, but you can effectively remove them from sight), etc. I've blocked people wherever I've been and there have been people there. Discord, too. I do this because I don't think it is my job to suffer other people's idiocy and assholiness; it is not my responsibility to suffer others.

I feel that that might be a bit... I don't know. Extreme? But good. I'm curating my online experience, and there's certain strains of people that I just don't want to be a part of my life.

Can this be applied to other aspects of how I think about people? Instead of assuming goodness or neutrality, instead of presupposing something exogenous that is causing perturbing behaviours I just block them out. Even IRL, it's not my job to tolerate assholes and idiots. Ignoring people is rude, but maybe that's just the best way to go about things.

I've been writing some Go (golang) for fun; and it is fun!

I don't get why people say it's "boring" or something. I heard Theo from t3 say that it doesn't make him feel smart

whatever that means; whatever reason he might want that lol

but I don't get that at all. It's not boring, it's cool! I LIKE IT!!! GO IS FUN!!

I've recently developed a mild obsession with Megurine Luka.

As such, I'd like to share some of my favourite Luka songs! In no particular order.

No Logic (absolutely LOVE this one; this is what put me on to Luka)

Master of Puppets

Iya Iya Seijin

Ame to Kusari

Black Gold (possibly my favourite)

Depression of Cybernetics

LUKA LUKA ⭐ NIGHT FEVER

I feel like Luka's dancing is kinda... Awkward? If that makes sense. It feels very normal and average. Some songs, like LLNF do have some more complex movements, but then there's No Logic. It makes her feel somewhat more human; less like a virtual idol and more like just a virtual girl that happens to sing. That's really cool, I think. That being said, her songs are absolute bangers, no two ways about it.

A streamer I love plays Project DIVA so we get to play lots of Luka songs. It's awesome! :D

I've had this lineup on repeat for a while, now. I hope to add more gems to my Lukartoire (Luka repertoire).

Faced with finding a job, I ask myself what I care about. What would I like to do?

The answer is nothing.

I really don't care about anything... Sometimes it'd so weird to hear people talk passionately about a subject. I've spoken passionately before, there are things that I'm passionate about, but not in a "do" sort of way. I'm passionate about my family, about injustices in the world, about music, about art. I'm passionate about a lot of things, really. But I wouldn't want to "do" any of them.

I wonder if it would be best to just find a menial job. Something that isn't anything in particular. It's just something people do because someone has to do it. They're not well-paid, which is a shame and annoying, but I suppose that's fine too. I just... I imagine everything else would be torture.

I wouldn't be using my degree, but I don't think I care, frankly.

I'll see if I can get a job at McDonald's.

Things are so complicated, sometimes. It's weird to think that everything is just people; things could get fixed if people just did them, if people acted together and swiftly, coordinated.

It's just weird to think about that.

I'm leaving my PhD.

Made the decision a couple of days ago, I think, but I only made it true today. I really hated this... My mom wasn't even surprised, though apparently my grandma and my brother were both shocked. My supervisor is pissed, also because, admittedly, I really didn't give him any warning I was feeling this way. But, I mean, what was I supposed to do?

I think this was a mistake. I hate research.

OK.

Then?! I mean, it's not that the issue is the projects or him or the university. The problem is, undeniably, ME! I don't want to be there. I got myself in too deep, I don't want to be in this world, so I decided to leave. I could've left sooner, sure, I couldn't left later... I could've left at a more convenient time for my supervisor, but I'm really not in the mood to torture myself any longer. I reached my breaking point, so I broke. It took time to reach this conclusion, it couldn't be helped.

Now, I hope I don't have to give the grant money back or pay the tuition... It's not particularly likely that I'll have to pay buy the grant money, but I might have to pay back the tuition, since the grant provider might not have payed it yet and may refuse to do so. It's fine, I can afford it, I think... But still. If I have to give everything back I'll be financially set back quite significantly, but that's life, I guess.

Good luck to me!

I'm so tired... I really need to get some proper shut-eye some time soon...

In no particular order.

1. classic_nonchalance
   Absolutely amazing fashion content. Cléa is absolutely hilarious, knowledgeble, and passionate. I'm not huge on fashion

though I do have the things I like

but Cléa's approach really speaks to me.

2. daywithmei
   Great food! I particularly love her tinned fish review series on TikTok, but everything Mei touches is gold, seemingly. Evidently.
   

3. No Logic
   Amazing song by JimmyThumb-P (aka OneRoom) that I first heard while watching a Project DIVA Mega Mix+ livestream. It's so good. The lyrics are really cool, but the instrumental is probably the best part; I just love it so much.
   

4. Python
   Maybe this is a bit silly, but I think Python is really cool. It's so easy to use and so useful! It's a fantastic tool appropriate for many situations, what's not to love about that?

5. Finding new things to read
   I love finding new things to read, especially romance and dramas. I recently came across a new anime called Kowloon Generic Romance (I link the manga), and I'm really excited to read it in the following days. Today, probably, actually.
   

6. drm_sqnc
   This has been a chill-out staple in my playlists for as many years as it's been out (8 years). It does something to me... Songs often get me pacing around the room, in circles or back and forth, but drm_sqnc soothes me deeply instead. It stops me. I like that it does that.

7. Public transport
   Especially trams, but I love all kinds of public transport.
   

   I used the bus a lot today, the tram too. It was lovely. By far the worst part about public transport is the public, though. I mean, people kind of piss me off, to be honest... I think I'm a very asocial person. However! However, I love the concept and I love the execution that I've experienced. I'm sure some public transport services in the world suck pretty bad, but, over here, they're just lovely.
   

8. Speaking to family
   I love speaking to my family. I speak with my little brother and grandma quite regularly, but I also keep in touch with my parents. They'll be visiting really soon, actually, which I expect is going to be just delightful.

...and on that note:

8. Languages
   I really, really love languages! I think they're awesome. I love the languages that hit my ear weird and the ones that sound familiar; I love the ones that were born naturally and the ones that were artificially created; I love the ones I can speak and the one's I've never heard; I love even the ones I don't know exist. Languages are awesome. Being able to say what you think and have others understand you is so insanely cool that I, somewhat ironically, don't have the words. Bazinga.
   

9. いきのこり•ぼくら
   I love Aoba Ichiko in general

her music is amazing ---, but this one in particular is beyond beautiful. The lyrics, the vocals, the guitar... The simplicity of the piece is its strongest characteristic, I think, as a song. The videoclip is also really cool, though I've only watched it, what, once? Twice? I've listened to this particular song more times than I've cared to count, and the whole album it's from is also incredible.

Let's keep it at a comfortable 9, for now.

It's nice to remember to appreciate some nice things.

I haven't eaten mushrooms in a while.

I love mushrooms; I think they're one of the best things in the world. They're cool-looking and delicious! Or poisonous, which is also super cool.

I'm really craving some mushrooms right now...

Continued writing my little Python app.

I'm having so much trouble making a clickable notification, though... I know it can happen, I remember making some on Windows a while back, but this is really tough to figure out... At least for me.

Well, I guess I'll just do something that looks like a notification with webview, IDK.

Update: Did it with webview!

I've been playing lots of Balatro, recently.

It's fun!

I've beaten the Black stake on the red deck. Pretty proud of that. IDK how hard this stuff is supposed to be to be honest. Made it as far as ante 13 before losing.

We'll see if I can beat Blue stake!

A funny thing I saw during my latest run:

I ended up writing quite a bit, yesterday, and "completed" a project I'd been working on since a long time ago. I'm not sure when I started, but it must've been years! I did drop it, eventually, for several reasons.

For one, I started it using Tauri and Rust. God, I hate that. I think it was a terrible experience, overall, though I did learn a lot in the process. I ended up getting a few parts of the project running, but overall it wasn't really very good at all. It didn't do what I wanted it to, it was laggy and buggy... Well, it wasn't great, let's leave it at that.

I decided to write it from scratch a few days ago, in Python. I don't even know when I last touched it... Once again, must've been years. Now, however, I actually managed to do it! Took me a couple of days, and it's not feature complete, but it does what I wanted it to and it looks pretty cute, if I do say so myself.

It's nothing special or fancy, but it feels nice to get something done.

There's a lot to improve on, really, but that's life. I tried to do stuff with a system tray, but it didn't look very good... Also, I need to learn databases. I know nothing about this stuff... I mean, I know SQL is a thing, I know SQLite is a thing that Python comes with... I wonder if it's better than what I'm doing. That was a joke by the way, it's for sure better. I'd like to improve my program.

I set up a list of features:

Current features:

• Persistent memory
• Creator search
• Creator selection
• Desktop notifications
• GUI

Upcoming features:

• Settings menu
  • Check-timing customization
  • Colour customization
• File download
• Taskbar icon
  • Minimize to taskbar
• Link notifications
• Scroll-to-load
• Advanced search
  • Post search
  • Tag search
• Authentication

I'll get to them eventually.

Didn't do much today. Hence, not much to report.

I did some spring cleaning, today.

Did my laundry

not all of it, mind you, since my floormates are hogging all the space... But a good bit of it, regardless

and cleaned my room. Also organized everything: my desk; my wardrobe; and my bedside table. Very nice!

I also bought some jeans, and put some "old ones" for sale. I'm not sure how many jeans are enough, generally speaking... I suppose all you really need is one pair, but 2 pairs is nice in case something happens to the first one (something I've experienced recently, as a matter of fact). Is 3 pairs too many, I wonder.

Something funny, though unfortunate, that happened with the purchase was that, at first, the jeans were listed at 10€. I inquired about the state of the legs, got some pictures, and bought them. Now, this was all in the span of 15 minutes since the jeans were put of for sale. 15 minutes! But then, the purchase was cancelled! Shocked, I went to check the seller's profile and, to my surprise, I find the exact same pair of jeans still for sale but at twice the original price! Well, they were pretty cheap regardless, and they seem to be in pristine quality, so I bought them anyway, but it did hurt to see the price be upped so ruthlessly. Looking over the profile, though, I could see that they sell all their pants for 20€, so I guess the initial sale price was just a typo.

I intend to put some other jeans I have here for sale as well, since I never wear them and they're in perfectly decent condition.

And with that, I'm out!

Today, I didn't eat.

Didn't get hungry, either. It's weird. This is a first for me.

I literally just sat and coded, didn't feel anything... For so many hours...

Well, hopefully this doesn't kill me.

I've been getting back into programming, lately.

Doing some very basic Python scripting, just for fun. Also tried out some more Rust, but holy shit is that rough!

Still, it's fun to try and solve these problems.

A couple of days ago, Hearthstone released their newest expansion and the standard game-mode underwent the yearly rotation. This is the best time to start playing the game.

I've been an avid Hearthstone player for many years, having even reached Legend, but I hadn't actually played standard in a rather long time, preferring to spend my gaming hours on Battlegrounds

the auto-battler game-mode

instead. Because I've played a little Balatro, recently, I decided to give standard a try once again, after a years-long hiatus.

At first, I went with the basic recipes. Hearthstone provides three recipes for each class, two of which are built around the current expansions, and one of which is the so-called "Core" deck, which is meant to display the class identity. I'm a Rogue player and have been for a while, so I went with Core Rogue for my first game back.

I got my ass handed to me.

Repeatedly.

Well, that is to be expected. The recipes suck, I'm rusty, and there's a lot of people trying out the powerful new cards! As such, I decided to try and build my own deck. I've played a lot of Pirate Rogue, so I looked over the Pirates available for the class, duck-taped a deck together and gave it my best try!

I got obliterated.

Repeatedly.

That is the path of the card gamer, I suppose... Frustrating, yes, but there's glory in loss when victory is inevitable. I decided to go check out what people were actually using and copied that. I had

and still have, actually

copious amounts of gold and dust, which allowed me to craft and buy the cards I needed to build a competitive deck. I looked over the most popular Rogue decks and got them running with a few tweaks I thought would improve the success of the strategy. The expansion came out not a long time ago, so the decks are by no means optimized.

That's when I started winning.

The first "real" deck I tried was called Bounce Rogue. It's a common strategy for Rogues, this bounce. I love it. I thought it would be similar to Miracle Rogue, which I love, but it wasn't quite what I was looking for. Admittedly, I could very well be playing it wrong. Still, as a Rogue veteran, I find that unlikely. Looking now, it seems that that decks' winrate is plummeting, while other competing decks are rising as the premier Rogue archetype.

Namely, Protoss Rogue. Protoss are a relatively new thing in Hearthstone. If you're familiar with other Blizzard IPs, you might recognize Protoss as the name of one of the factions in Starcraft. I tried that deck out as well and haven't looked back. A few other Protoss decks have also been gathering some steam, but I've stuck with my initial build.

I went from Bronze 10 to Platinum 9 in a few hours, and had lots of fun along the way. I love the cool mechanics all over the game, the way different classes are trying to win games... It's a lot of fun to discover the new stuff.

My one issue, so far, has been Demon Hunter. I remember when Demon Hunter came out and was completely broken. I don't know how broken it has been, since then, but it seems to still be broken as of right now. Whenever I face a Demon Hunter, I'm inclined to forfeit the match immediately. They're the most common class on the ladder, at least the class I've seen most so far, and they absolutely wipe the floor with me every single time. Well, not every single time, I suppose. I did beat a Demon Hunter player once, with a combination of horrendous draws on my opponent's part and miraculous luck on mine.

Regardless of the state of the META, for now at least, I'm having fun. I'm not sure if I'll commit to getting Legend just yet, but I'm thinking about it. I might try out some other Rogue archetypes that are being developed, too.

I wish we used Latin phrases more. I use ad eternum with some frequency, idem too, but I wish there were more. Id est, et cetera... Abbreviations have cursed us! Latin is so cool... And then people don't even know what it is because we don't write it out. I've seen some atrocious spellings of "et cetera," let me tell you! Moreover, these phrases are often relegated to technical language. I hate it!

I dealt with my Syncthing, file organization, and I cleaned out my password manager.

It feels so good to have things in order. The Synchthing side of it was a little sketch, to be honest, but I managed with some filters, nothing crazy. The password manager took a long time, since I was fixing weak passwords, changing emails, and deleting old accounts, but it was fun in its own way. I'll say: I'm socked at how many services have weird restrictions on passwords. I dealt with a website that required a password to be between 8 and 10 characters long and not include any special characters. I'm not kidding. 8 and 10?! RIDICULOUS! How are they storing this stuff... I don't trust it at all.

Quite a few other websites also ban certain special characters, which is weird but fine, and a decent number of them have a character limit of like 20. 20?! It's so weird... Shouldn't these things be hashed? Why is there a character limit at all... Why is it freaking 20?!

IDK if I mentioned it before, but I also fixed my Firefox CSS. It was alright, but I figured that there was something wrong about it, like there was something about the way I wrote it that wasn't quite correct. I tried to fix it, and ended up mucking everything up, but I managed to pull it back and improve. In the midst of all that, I figured out how to make the browser content float with a box-shadow and rounded corners à la Zen. That style isn't for me, but I could enable it if I want.

I like the minimalist look. Pic related.

I wonder though, if others might prefer the other look. Pic also related.

It's an interesting look for sure.

My bike has really been frustrating me. I tuned the brake, but I must've done it wrong. They're not good enough... Maybe I should just go get them tuned at the store, but I did get them tuned at the store not that long ago and they're somehow fucked again. I suppose that folding it and whatnot might fuck with the brakes, but gee man it really sucks...

Well, best to have it as I have now than before; before I struggled to brake, now they brake too much... Sigh...

By the way, the word "brake" is so unintuitive, I feel like. Why isn't it just "break?!" Break does imply things being... Broken, like, to break one's stride? Meh

I really feel like eating a snack right now. I ate a lot today, as I did yesterday

as I do, every other weekend

but I'm really craving some snacks; I'm talking potato chips, specifically.

I have so much on my mind that I find it hard to put it all to words. Also, I mostly feel that it'd be silly to put it all to words! I don't want to put it all to words, but it's hard to make things clear and pick out the parts I do want to write about.

Generally, I think the main points I want to get across are that I want to be a low-maintenance person. I don't want to need much. I did a little broad inventory of my stuff with my brother today, and it's really not much at all. I use very few things a lot.

Oh, I tuned my brakes yesterday. Didn't actually get a chance to test, them

will do so tomorrow

but I'm excited to see if I fixed the issues I was having.

Had a great day today.

Sushi with the fam, did everything I wanted with my laptop, even managed to clear some space on my phone, got some things set up that I wanted to for a while with my dad... It was just a great day.

My Linux experience so far has been nothing short of incredible, by the way. I mean, I am considerably more tech savvy than the average person, but I really don't feel like this took any more technical expertise than getting started with Windows. Some of the things I did, like hardening my Firefox and setting up Wireguard, sure, but that has nothing to do with Linux per se.

I don't know. I just... Haven't managed to find fault with it just yet.

And the clear performance improvements are making me feel like a fool to have waited this long to switch...

I'll go eat some chocolate.

I'm officially on Linux!

Installed Linux Mint, still doing some customization and whatnot, but it's working so far. Well, it's not the first time I've used Linux, of course, but it's the my first time actually committing to daily-driving it.

We'll see how this goes, hopefully well...

I'm hungry, as I write this. I could eat, sure, but what should I eat is the question. I could make rice, for one

that could be nice

or I could go and buy some bread and eat that. Both options sound viable, but the latter does require me to go outside, and it is currently raining rather heavily.

Sewing... I sewed some patterns into my hat. Nothing special or... Not even a pattern, really. Just some lines. Sashiko-inspired, maybe? I love sashiko, and I did buy the needles and thread thinking of sashiko, so maybe that's fair to say. It's not actually sashiko, though. It does look kinda cool; I think so, anyway. It gives the boring old black cap a new feel, it makes it look weirder and more unique. And it is unique, not just because of the things it's seen, as a hat, but because I didn't follow any guides or lines, I just sewed what I felt like, and so it is as it is and nothing else is quite like it. I think that's somewhat poetic.

I got my new jeans today. Second-hand, of course. They're great, I think. No major blemishes. Sure, there was a little bit of a heel-bite on the right side, but it's so small that I didn't even notice after I put them on. They're a bit longer than the size I've been wearing. This was on purpose, of course; I wanted to try it out because my mom said it might be better. I don't necessarily agree or disagree, now that I've tried them on. They're basically the same as my old ones! We'll see, we'll see... Regardless, it's good that I can now feel confident in buying a longer size. Nice!

I think I'll go buy some bread...