I'm sick of working more or less the same hours every week for over 2 years and yet I'm a casual.

On a deeper level, I'm pissed off that I didn't make more of my life due to low self esteem and confidence and a lack of self belief. Any bright spark of confidence and independence of spirit I displayed as a child was vigorously and abusively snuffed out by my parents, who wanted obedience and servitude from me. I was the dux of my school but I never believed I was good enough for anything worthwhile. I was a perpetual doormat in my early relationships, and more than occasionally a punching bag. Now I'm working as a casual in manufacturing, 50 years old, physically tired and working my arse off.

I'm pissed off that my mother's sons from her first marriage (who she blatantly loved more than me) contested her Will for a greater share of my childhood home (that they never lived in) so I didn't get to inherit that house, and that was probably my only shot at home ownership.

I'm pissed off that I was such a wimp for much of my life, too scared to take risks, too worried about failure.. and that in itself is a failure.

Wow! 🥫🪱🪱🪱. Sorry guys! Well, you did ask..