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TransLater and unsure about how far to go in transitioning (lemmy.world)

submitted 6 days ago* (last edited 6 days ago) by captainjaneway@lemmy.world to c/translater@lemmy.blahaj.zone

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I'm 30 years old (soon to be 31). I'm a new trans woman (still working through how I might accept it and see myself). I'm unsure how far I should go. I've spoken at some length on other communities about what it feels like to be "ugly and masc". I realize feeling like I can't "pass" as a fem is partly due to deeply rooted transphobia. I have what most older men have: masculine distribution of fat (bit of a belly), hairy everywhere, fears of balding (so far not yet), deepish voice, etc.

If I had no friends or family, I'd probably just go all in: hormone therapies, voice training, surgeries, etc. But I feel like I need to pass in front of my immediate family since I'm sure I wouldn't be accepted. I love them, but they wouldn't get it.

I don't know how far I should go with transitioning. I am currently considering growing out my hair, shaving, and trying to do exercises that conform my body to a more stereotypical feminine shape. Is there a lot of risk in hormone therapies and voice training? Is it hard to go "boy mode" after the fact? What about being 30+ years old and starting it? Should I just accept I'll never pass?

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[–] dandelion@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 6 days ago* (last edited 6 days ago)

yeah, sounds like you get it.

I get not believing it would work, but I just wouldn't count on perfection, you can see that this is the right course on principle, that you won't be mentally or physically healthy without transition, and you know the only evidence-based and effective treatment is transition. It's really that simple, tbh.

Even if it doesn't "work", living without transition works even less.

Also, I agree (now) that it's foolish to assume it won't work - most of us don't think we will ever pass, and lo and behold most of us do after a few years on HRT. I have a trans woman friend IRL who transitioned in her mid-40s who passes and is much happier.

And don't forget, a lot of passing is in your control: hair styling, skin routine, makeup skills, hair removal, voice training, fashion sense - a lot of these tasks are up to you to accomplish and will contribute to walking and talking like a ~duck~ woman, and thus being perceived as a woman in society.

And it gets easier once the estrogen improves your mood, better motivation and energy will help with the challenges of transition. I socially transitioned a few months before I could start HRT, which was a nightmarish time looking back (all the burdens of transition with none of the hormonal mental benefits).

The only way I managed to transition was by recognizing that not transitioning was actively hurting people in my life, I was passively suicidal and unconsciously took risks with my life and limb, and after the second or third ER visit, the people I love were at their wit's ends. Realizing compassion and care for myself was integral to being a good person, and being good to other people was what finally made me open to transition (in addition to the life-changing information about biochemical dysphoria and learning what dysphoria can look like - previously I just didn't know my symptoms matched typical trans experiences).