This is what gave me some peace: it could all end horribly for me at any minute. Anything could happen. I could get hit by a bus. I could die painfully from some fucked up disease. A fat asteroid could hit the earth. It's all out of my control. Or things could turn out for the better, by some way I never foresaw. The best thing for us to do is to strive to be good people and care for what is in front of us.

I still find it a bit of a mindfuck that humanity is being such a deleterious effect on this beautiful world.

... and I do think that growing up under the threat of nuclear holocaust must have been similarly terrifying.