Ah, a nihilist. I know my limits, and virtually nothing I can say will change your mind because it's still closed, and you likely already have an answer to any questions you ask.

However, I'll leave you with this:

You can see it as naive and idealistic, and sure, I get it. But I never claimed happiness is permanent. It's a worldview, and those can and should change. How they change is entirely up to the individual.

You have more control over your path than you realize, and those who benefit from a defeated or complacent populace are terrified of you realizing it.