[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago)

Borderline schizoaffective, psychotic features. Constantly questioning sanity. Reality often surreal. Dbt, cbt has helped the most. If I practice mindfulness, grounding exercises daily.... when mind spirals, reality starts to explode, easier to come back, keeps me tethered.

Tho, once as kid, when I became convinced I might be a disembodied brain floating in a jar, started to seriously freak out. Came home in terrorized panic, flipping madly thru my bookshelf, and reading "summa theologica" finally made the panic stop.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 2 points 9 months ago

Out of sight, out of mind. If I need to clean frequently, I have to keep cleaning supplies out, easy to access. Enter a room, see cleaning supplies, oh, I should clean. Without the visual reminder, won't remember.

Keep at least 2 to 3 notebooks on hand. Always writing stuff down. I'll research, be thinking about something, but brain starts to lose focus. Write it down. Will completely forget after that. But when thought enters brain later, oh wait, I made notes...

Notepad app on phone. Anything important, will forget, so need to record.

Dbt, cbt has helped. Brain tends to be scattered, all over the place, so daily mindfulness, grounding exercises to connect to moment.

Only able to process data rapidly, large scale, all data at once. So, books with large pages, lots of data broken down, grouped for rapid assimilation.

Routines are essential. Phone always in left pocket, keys in right pocket, etc. If I put keys somewhere else, I'll freak, panic. So routine, if I start to panic, look in usual spot, wait, they're where they're supposed to be.

If out in public, at a counter, take wallet out, lay on counter.... stare at wallet entire time, not breaking eye contact, or else I'll forget it's there.

Wallet attached via chain. Small compact umbrella so I can keep in pocket, otherwise will lose it. Carbiner attached to things so it's easier to hold, not lose.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 11 months ago

Been on Ritalin for a decade. Helps a lot. Used to be WAY disorganized.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 11 months ago

Bubble bobble

Castlevania

Metroid prime

Also as a kid remember playing some old school ghostbusters game that consisted of mashing a button over and over as quickly as possible.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

Got a lot of really good tips, thanks to everyone for chiming in. I was a serious alcoholic for decades, and haven't had a drink in 5 years. So I will be able to quit smoking. Thanks again!

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

Now, if you ever hit me, and I find out about it...

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

I got mine on Amazon, $15 I think. Tiny, lightweight, can even put into bag, travel with it, liven up bare wall hotels.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

Chased into street, knocked into street pavement, kicked in stomach repeatedly while neighbors watched.

Thrown across room, onto sofa, jumped on top, pinned me down, beating into my face with his fists.

Hit, shoved so hard I nearly flip, slam into wall, earring ripped thru ear.

I had a happy childhood.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

I've seen billboards, street signs, addresses written on curbs, numbers on apartment doors. Once was in a city reading a chalkboard menu for Mexican food, amazed at prices, wondering if I could speak Spanish well enough to ask questions.

Reading is never main focus though. More vaguely in background.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

Rough time in my life, pushed to breaking point, trauma, etc. Normal sensory processing disorder and highly active imagination got pushed next level. Felt I was starting to hallucinate, visions became intense, maybe someone from another dimension was trying to communicate with me, and they had to break my mind, make me go insane, to make it happen?

Anyhow, late one day, standing in a park, beneath a tree, sunset. Close eyes, sensation shattering, suspended, sunlight thru closed eyelids was amniotic glow.

Moment of fear, was I truly going insane? Thought about this. The reality I found myself in was actually quite pleasant, relaxing. I'd be OK with that.

That eventually led to not living in fear of possible insanity. Being ruled by fear is pointless longterm. Better to face, accept, after which, it can sometimes be enjoyable.

[-] 31415926535@lemm.ee 3 points 1 year ago

Loved Harvey. My favorite episodes are crackers don't matter, unrealized reality, Kansas, won't get fooled again. Rygel in John's body trying to figure out how to pee in a corner always cracks me up. Humans are SUPERIOR!!!

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