Questionning, i guess ? Sorry if I'm being confusing, it's just that I'm confused... This is all new to me .-.
To put some context I live with roomates and although I told them I might experiment some things like makeup, it still takes some "social effort" to really do it. Like dressing up, I wouldn't know where and how to start...
On top of that, I still have some kind of impostor syndrom for some reason. The dissonance is tyring, so I just lie in bed, try to read frieren and play caves of qud
It was ok, i just feel I'm not making much progress on my questionning like previous weeks. At times I feel like my transition is miles away, or like a fantasy. But I imagine myself as a girl and i feel strong gender euphoria so... I guess i'm making steps in the right direction. I just don't know what to do next.
I ordered makeup on amazon tho, can't wait to try it
Please take this love and support ❤❤❤
I'm questionning and told a fren. I didn't want to talk about it but we kept going around it while talking about my recent life so I told him. He said "woaaah i never thought" and everytime someone says that it hurts a bit because the road seems soooo long .-.
He was really nice about it tho
My roomates are very supportive too but acted awkward at first
Thank you for your answer :)
I have read that any trans person is confronted with some kind of impostor syndrom at some point, your anecdote proves that to be true ! I do feel like I trick people/myself at times because I don't feel 100% dysphoria all the time, although I do feel euphoria almost always when I picture myself as a woman. I've read that it's normal, feelings come and go... I suppose since I'm feeling confused, I'm looking for some certainty somewhere :P
See you next week I guess haha I think it's cool to talk about it in this thread, even to put words on how I feel