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Are you qualified to be a technical assistant? You could get involved in a science oriented environment without, say, having a degree in a scientific field. It could be pharmacology, etc.

I didn't say it was a moral system, I never even used the word, it is human psychology and philosophy. Even in your example I could say "This was was to liberate X" then someone else says "That war killed so many civilians!". Someone fires a bunch of people to save the rest from losing their jobs, the fired people say it was bad, the others it was good. Same event, two views. You can have "Hot summers are perfect", the next person hates them.

The definition of what is "good" changes depending on the person, the situation, etc. It is like defining what is "perfect".

I have to force myself to make eye contact when talking. I usually look away when talking, it helps me think. Some people think you aren't being sincere but oh well.

Yes, at a certain point you have to pull the trigger. I've found that my fear of possible problems has been far greater than reality and I was always able to find a way around them and progress. Blind faith in yourself, even if you have to pretend, really helps. lol

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This is one thing you need to resolve. People pick up on this and it is self-sabotage. I bet you judge yourself far more harshly than anyone else does and things you think are bad about yourself no one even pays attention too.

As far as the other issues lots of people have dealt with it. You obviously need to move and I'd study what job opportunities are possible out there. I'd keep an open mind about what jobs I could do too. Save up what money you can to get a new place. I suspect you don't have much stuff so the act of moving could be as easy as renting a u-haul. Jobs almost always will accommodate a new person if they need a few weeks to move if you tell them up front. Believe me, if I could do it anyone can.

Ugh, I hate the lie we've promoted for decades that "you can be anything!" and "you're all special!". No, we can't all be anything we want. I'll never be a rock star, I'll never be a great athlete, etc. And we aren't all special, we are more alike than we may care to admit.

Your specific issues may be due to unrealistic expectations. Do you hate jobs in general due to being on a schedule all the time? Should you have your own business? Look at what you choose in other people, what you look for may need to change since it has a bad track record. Look at your own behavior too, are you self sabotaging? Do you have bad traits like a short temper? As far as a house that has so many variables like where you live may just be too expensive, need to look harder for smaller and older homes in your price range, etc.

This is similar to "be a soldier and suck it up". I used to keep my objections to myself and go along with things. This doesn't make your feelings go away, instead it makes resentment build up along with passive aggression. I now speak up but do so reasonably nicely.

On the other hand I have found a lot of people who turn the hobby they love into a business and it ruins the joy they found in their hobby.

My brother is so smart he can rationalize his way out of seeking help for his chronic depression. I once told him about a FREE depression meds trial and he said "I don't want to be artificially happy." I responded "So you'd rather be naturally miserable?"

Even in the shower?

I need to get a grip when driving and not let others upset me so easily.