By: u/No-Action3492
Recently I converted to Islam and started practicing. I have always been fascinated by different cultures and religions (especially Islam).
I converted because I found that Islam made far more sense than Christianity and also I did not like the way Islam was being portrayed and Muslims were being treated in the west.
Another reason I converted was to find a sense of community as I never had many friends growing up.
However as I started becoming more religious, I started becoming extremely depressed and anxious about the hellfire.
I’ve noticed that the vast majority of Muslims seem to take the Qu’ran and Hadith literally and very often harbour disgusting views (such as towards gay people, women, other sects of Islam and towards non Muslims), views which certainly aren’t compatible in a modern society and quite frankly it doesn’t make any sense to take holy texts literally such as miracles mentioned in them which couldn’t have happened scientifically and also nobody actually knows what happens when we die.
Something that really bothers me though is how many Muslims (not all) see non Muslims as evil people destined for hell even if they were good people and that people who don’t pray will go to hell which gives me a lot of anxiety even if that sounds irrational.
Also virtually everything fun and enjoyable in life (I.e: music, birthday celebrations, owning a pet dog) is viewed as haram by these Salafists (who unfortunately seem to be the mainstream from my experience).
So for now I’ve decided not to practice any religion although I don’t agree with ex Muslims either because they seem to be very bitter individuals and spread hate against Islam as a whole which is not my intention as I know Islam was originally meant to be a force for good even if it’s been warped by Salafists today.
I also think it’s better and more logical to view the Qu’ran as the inspired word of Allah rather than Allah’s literal word.
I might look into Sufism in the future as it seems to be much more calmer and peaceful than mainstream Islam.
