hazl

joined 5 months ago
[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 31 minutes ago

It's not a safe chair.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 4 days ago

Smart and considerate. Carry on.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 5 days ago (3 children)

...why are you back on .world? 🙁

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 5 days ago (1 children)

I liked the way they rustled, and the generous duration of the video.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 9 points 5 days ago (1 children)

I took offense to the festive train, so I chose to substitute my birthday with my tranniversary for the frankly much more on–brand purple miniature train. I hope that's okay.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 6 days ago

It's not @Frozzie@lemmy.world. I checked.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 9 points 1 week ago (4 children)

That's a heart breaking way to learn your lesson about backups. It must have taken a long time to accept.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 1 week ago (2 children)

Because I was complaining just last night about how I'm definitely gaining weight now, and no I won't stand on the scale to confirm, but I can just tell from the way my clothes are fitting, and it's "so unfair because I'm not even eating anything rich or carb heavy, and I exercise every day". Then literally the next day I get up, eat chocolate, watch YouTube videos, do zero exercise, then fall back asleep.

I dunno. This seemed as good a time as any to get this off my chest.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 week ago (4 children)

I ate chocolate today and I'm feeling really guilty about it.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 week ago (2 children)

I'm not sure if I understand the last installment. It seems like the exposed wolf was cast out, but The Elder took pity nonetheless because they are both outsiders. Or perhaps the other two wolves are content with their new identities, but the orange one still feels lost. It doesn't seem to end the series on an uplifting note anyway.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 15 points 1 week ago (1 children)

Sounds like this guy was someone's nephew.

[–] hazl@lemmy.blahaj.zone 14 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago)

You're getting stuck on my failure to read the summary because you thought this was an opportunity to make someone feel stupid online. The fact is that I did read it, and the article, however my brain disregarded the miniscule detail that we're only talking about the friends part of Bumble because it has no influence on my overall takeaway. Stop being weird.

 

HRT day 17.

I always wanted to be more social. I cared about people, wanted to know them more deeply, and wanted them to know me. I just never enjoyed the experience because I felt that the time people spent on me was an arduous act of charity that they endured for my sake, out of politeness and perhaps pity. I therefore kept to myself, unintentionally presented a pretty hard exterior that made me seem abrasive and antisocial, and spent nights wishing I could be closer to people around me. I was ashamed of who I was, and ultimately faded out of the lives of everyone I met sooner or later, once I felt I'd revealed too much of myself to put them through any more. It was lonely, and worst of all, many of these people continued trying to reach out while I sequestered myself and waited for the guilt to subside.

Short of growing breasts and marked shifts in fat distribution that I likely won't see for many months, I can never be sure what's an estrogen thing, what's a placebo thing, and what's just a good mood, but the last few days have been an unprecedented shift in my overall outlook. I talk honestly with people. I opened up to my mother about deeply personal things that I've kept guarded for decades. I message people just to ask if they're doing okay and if they want to catch up over coffee some time, and without even cringing at myself for doing so.

Today I've been thinking a lot about how remarkable it is to simply feel like I'm allowed to exist in the world, and allowed to be part of other people's lives. This isn't me. Except it is, and I hope it stays this way forever.

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