[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

29 here. Just realized I was trans so worried I missed out on being able to pass as I transition 😞

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 5 points 1 year ago

Try writing it down in a letter. You don't even need to give it to the person until you feel more ready. But maybe writing these feelings down and expressing them somewhere will help you gain the courage to tell those that matter. And then it's literally just handing them a letter. You won't have to find the courage to put words together because you already did it in your letter.

At least that helps me when I'm trying to say something difficult - no matter how I think the person will react.

Small steps at a time. It sounds like your sisters will be supportive and they may already have a feeling and are just waiting for you to come to them.

Just know you aren't alone and we are here for you as well ❤ ️

You got this hun, and once it's out there - it's done and no longer something you have to do alone. It can be very daunting but also very relieving.

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

Dj Roomba as a reference to PnR. And Disco, DJs older brother

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

I'm here for you as you have been for me! We can get through this together ❤️

I'm having a lot of those thoughts too. Both feelings of confidence and love for myself and more depressive thoughts like I'm just too tired to do this? Now I know why I have had chronic depression and anxiety - but also 29 years of that really takes the wind out of your sails sometimes.

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 5 points 1 year ago

Thank you for normalizing these feelings for me ❤️ I'm also struggling with the concept of gender being a spectrum. Although I feel more feminine than masculine, there are aspects of myself I don't necessarily want to lose. I don't know. I don't even know how far I want to transition. I think I'd be willing to do HRT, but I'm also worried about my intimacy with my wife. I hear it can change libido as well as the functionality of my penis.

I don't know. I hate feeling like I know exactly who I want to be now, but at the same time no idea how far I'm comfortable with going? Not to mention the stress it puts on my marriage and family.

Been having another really rough day today and I don't have support from anyone other than my wife who is currently too overwhelmed to be able to talk about this stuff. Which I understand.

I'm rambling. Sorry, I know you were being nice about reaching out - but I could really use a friend who has been going through this too 😕

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

Thank you ❤️

It's such a bizarre feeling. Thinking you're seeing yourself in the mirror your entire life and then realizing that the real you is buried.

I see a glimmer of my true self in my eyes now. I already look lighter if that makes sense. More happy. Just by working on my self acceptance.

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

That is so fantastic that you are supportive of your sibling and what they are going through. The world needs more people that are loving and supportive!

And thanks! I keep chickening out on shaving, but I'm doing it tonight! I'm really looking forward to feeling more like myself.

No need to be envious, we can be shaving pals 😁 if that feels like something you may enjoy, why not explore it? It's temporary and easy to cover up :) just a thought.

Thank you for the kind words!

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 5 points 1 year ago

Same! I have been counting all the times I shut myself down when I was getting a little too comfortable with my true self.

Finger nail polish was fun until a teacher yelled at me for being a distraction.

Shaving my arms and legs was fun until I realized how nice it made me feel.

Watching my mom put on makeup and wanting to try it until she started asking if I was gay. (I mean yes, but not in the way you think mom 😏)

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

Damn it, same thing happened to me! Was diagnosed with ADHD in my mid 20s after realizing the memes were getting a little too real 😅

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

Thank you so much for the support ❤️

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

Thanks! Yeah, that's what they tell me. With trauma work, a lot of times it gets a lot harder before it gets better. But the frequency and severity of the dreams/nightmares has decreased as I've worked through some of that stuff :)

[-] oNevion@lemm.ee 4 points 1 year ago

Definitely meant as in I had no idea either and you helped me learn something today ☺️

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