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Rant about "having ADHD is not an excuse for everything"
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Honestly, I can't bear to imagine the rest of my life dealing with this. Truly, I'll never amount to more than scraping by in life, and it's such a shitty bleak picture. But whatever, I've already mourned for the normal life I'll never lead, and I'll keep doing my best which isn't good enough until everything falls apart completely, then I'll kill myself. Happy Friday!
First and foremost, I don't know your circumstances but I can relate and I'm sorry. Your worth isn't measured by "productivity" or "what you amount to", you matter. Work Culture and general North American society isn't great for us with ADHD, all we can do is try our best. I swear to you that even when things look dark and there's no way out, it does end. I'm going to put a ramble of my experience in a spoiler.
Long ramble of my experience
My ADHD got me into a pit of credit card debt, small compared to others at just under $19k CAD but I still had $20k+ in my student loan and I couldn't see a way out, struggled hard, kept deferring payments and hitting overdraft, legit at my worst point I was $20 from bankruptcy, I probably could have got support from family and my at the time girlfriend (now partner) but I was too ashamed of it, I didn't want to admit it to my partner (and she knew it, I don't lie well, not that that's a skill I really want to have). It put a lot of strain on my relationship, made me the most anxious I've ever been and very nearly ended my relationship, my life was on the verge of falling apart completely, I'd be lying if I didn't have the exact same thoughts.I was diagnosed 3 years ago at 31, I did what my dad (who's likely got ADHD if not AuDHD, but won't get evaluated) did and expended all my energy on work to the detriment of other parts of my life, I also struggled with binging (spending is obvious, but also alcohol and food) and emotional regulation.
My partner is the reason I got evaluated, she convinced me to get into therapy (I have a good therapist who has ADHD, didn't know that when I found them). After diagnosis, it took me at least a year to begin accepting that I have ADHD (funny that putting a name to it changes things right), that it effects everything I do and that I have, and will always have it. Hardest thing was realising just his much of my personality is influenced by it. Medication is helpful but it's not perfect, but with therapy, it's helped address some of the maladaptive coping mechanisms I developed.
If you have access to therapy and aren't already, it helped me immensely. Depending where you live there may be resources you can access through your health authority. We're here if you want, even just venting can be helpful.
Go get professional help. This is incredibly disordered thinking.
Not a healthy outlook.
In therapy and on meds, which is why I'm still limping along instead of giving up ๐
Intellectually I don't think there's much point to continuing existence, but working on that in therapy and thanks to medication I'm emotionally disconnected from the depressive Bad Thoughts โข๏ธ, so I'm still just going until I can't. The depression can get better but the ADHD can't really.
So, I might not really want to exist, but I feel apathetic about it generally! ๐
The good thing is that what is considered "being successful" is completely arbitrary and in the grand scheme of things completely irrelevant. You don't need to "be successful" to lead a happy life. This "scraping by" you say is a pretty bleak picture is just so because you think it is, you can be absolutely happy living like that. I hope you'll be able to be happy eventually <3
From a critter in a similar spot (as opposed to some arrogant, condescending prick, which is apparently the norm in this thread), good luck having life! If you figure out a neat secret trick that makes it good, lemme know :P
Won't blame you if you don't, though. Some of us just can't, and no amount of "just get over it" is ever gonna "fix" us so we act like others want us to regardless of what that does to us.