So I went to different psychiatrists they said I have dysthymia and social anxiety disorder but I've come to realise I have neither yes low levels of serotonin and some other good chemicals and all but honestly I'm just scared of different things and not willing to confront them cause I know I'll feel really bad and nothing will change but that's the whole truth you know even if it doesn't make a difference. But I'll be honest about one thing my thoughts do get disoriented so bad sometimes I could kill myself they don't make sense adding on to my fears but still at the roots letting fear take over is the only illness I have and my medication or whatever I do is orientated towards reducing intensity of that rather than thinking this and that illness it's lame just stop lying if you do this too.