Even though there is a LOT more to a person than productivity and that can never be the thing that defines us, I'm going to focus exclusively on that because that's what this post is about.

I had one of those days today. Absolutely awesome. I almost had no meetings and the software changes kept coming in. I nailed it. I'm still on a rush, I feel unstoppable!

However yesterday, I came home and I was almost crying to my partner because I couldn't take the laundry off the rack and I felt useless.

But hey, so is the life of ADHDers. I accept it. Yesterday it took me a while to get out of that emotional state. I knew that rationally I'm not a useless person and I have a good handle on my life. However emotionally it was way harder. It took me a lot of processing to synthesise that knowledge into feelings.

So I know the rational part, and I lean on that and on a very understanding, loving partner (who is also neurodivergent) who helps me stay grounded when I panic. Our productivity is not constant. That is fine - on average, there's nothing wrong with our output!