We often have a terrible relationship with our weight. We're too fat, too thin, our weights on the wrong part of our body etc. How much does your weight bother you?
Please don't post your weight, numbers can be triggering for people with a history of disordered eating
Somewhat. I'm more annoyed that my belly is more man-ish than woman-ish and is bigger than my chest right now. Now, considering how well... endowed... the AFAB women in my family are and the fact that I've only been on hrt for about 5 months, that's gonna change. But... I feel like the "man belly" and lack of boobage contributes to me being misgendered despite all the people who know me saying I'm already basically fem-drogynous. It's a struggle not to abuse my hrt meds and take more than I'm supposed to.
I'm 30 damn it, if I'd come out 10yrs ago I'd probably be done transitioning.
Oh well.
Edit: something I like about the furry community is how much body-positive art exists. It used to be that the furry community had the same issues with idealizing anorexia; however, nowadays furry art tends to have a wide variety of body types ranging from relatively typical to chubby, stocky, morbidly obese, etc. Very affirming and helped me learn to be okay with my weight, though I'm still kinda annoyed with how my body fat is actually distributed. >.>
Genetics are weird, sometimes we have very different bodies than the women in our family. My mother and her sisters are five cup sizes away from my cup size. It's bonkers. If you don't mind, I'll put a suggestion below in spoiler text for those days when you want to have a little more ooh la la. Also! Five months is such a short time! I had high estrogen into adulthood and it still took several years to grow to my final cup size. It can happen quickly for many people, some of us are just late bloomers :)
Tap for spoiler
There's two techniques I know to having a large breast size under clothes. The first one is "chicken cutlets", which are little chicken breast shaped bra inserts. Place in the cup, then scoop your breast over it. Helps to shimmy the bra band a little as you settle into it, too. (edit:) The internet says there are new types of inserts on the market, so if one doesn't give a profile you like there's others to try!The second one is something I learned from a friend who did gogo dancing. Wear two bras! The first one is usually a strapless pushup that gives the silhouette you like. The outer one needs to be more structurally supportive, cute sports bras can work here.
Also, you can kinda emphasize your chest by wearing different styles of clothes. High rise mom jeans and a crop top can shift the focus from your belly to that cute section of midriff and lead the eyes up from there, that's something that has worked well for me at any size, even when I was above 35 BMI
If it helps, unless your current dose is too low taking a higher dose of your HRT meds isn't going to make their effects happen faster. Your body only makes so much SHBG (Sex hormone binding globulin), which it needs to actually use the estrogen you're taking.
Interesting. Hmm...