I definitly dont think I am smart. Other people can get new friends, find love-life , can afford proper apartments, knows how to plan social events, are wellrounded enough in knowledge that they can do trivia quizzes, and can do small-talk about real life stuff, or remember each others names, faces, and what they talked about last time they met. I got so little clue about any of that. Feel seriously dumb sometimes.

I can google very well. I'm a self-learned developer without university education. I can do okay on pop film-music trivia quiz. Can read out a good fiction novel in a single night. So I am above average smart in some VERY narrow fields.

But at least I dont think I know stuff I dont. I know my limits. I defer to people who have more experience than me. So I trust doctors and teachers about vaccinations, I trust that scientists are right about the coming climate changes, and I dont trust in people who have been caught lying before, no matter how much money or power they got. Im not THAT dumb. Sometimes it feels like just that alone puts me above average. But that cant be right, right?