Reading the comments is both depressing and uplifting.

Depressing because so many people were in bad shape at some point but uplifting because so many got out and/or are on the way up. Congrats folks!

I never viewed myself as an addict although I have autism and have an obsessive streak = I like to form heavy routines that are not often healthy.

Gave up drinking entirely 6 yrs ago since I was in a bas situation and was drinking a beer every day and it started bothering me. I quit smoking hookah about 2 months ago but I still tell myself its a pause since thats easier for me. I did the same with alcohol.

„Taking a break“ is what worked for me since my mind can’t tell me that I wont make it since there is nothing to „make“. I‘m just taking a break (which now lasts 6 yrs in the case of alcohol). It could have something to do with demand avoidance which can be a problem for autistic people (and others?).

Thanks for reading my ramble and have a nice day.