Man, when I was cleaning up off meth I decided to try out Narcotics Anonymous. Most depressing shit I've sat through. I felt like the shit I'd gone through paled in comparison to what other people were struggling with. I didn't stick with it, couldn't force myself to relinquish agency to god, the strength I needed to change and heal came from within not some sky ghost. The thing I took away though? Validation of my pain, it's subjective, just because someone goes through worse doesn't mean how you feel and what you've suffered isn't valid...isn't real...isn't bad enough. And fuck anyone who implies that's the case. They're saying that, I can almost guarantee, because they feel that their pain isn't valid.

Love you buddy, you got this.

That sucks. But don't be too down about it - remember that other people have it worse.

(Sorry, had to. I hope things get better.)

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