Due to bunch of stuff, by early 20s, was so disconnected from body. No idea how to connect with people.

Then was at a healthy, responsible community rave. Given a dose of ecstasy, and as it kicked in, people let me fall into a group hug mass, bodies warm, gentle, caring. Found self looking up at one person, a closeness, openness I'd never felt before.

Ecstasy showed me what was possible, opened something in me i didnt know was there. Only done it twice, but that wad enough. If done responsibly, some drugs can be quite therapeutic.