I’d cry first taking it

I know I did! The good thing was that it completely subsided my severe anxiety and I've been off meds ever since after they did their job.

Whatever hurdles you still have, dear Stamets, I hope you're able to keep working towards getting meds. Some fiction-worthy circumstances made my own undertaking SUCK, and it took other extreme health trials for me to even tackle the whole process properly in the first place, cause all that stuff made me a pro with "just one more day of this shit, and I can die tomorrow, right?", but so far it's been utterly worthwhile. We can all cry, together!