I'm not sure if I've ever been quite at that stage. I've been medicated for the past two decades, so I'm functional depressed. A lot of what causes my depression is situational.

Lately I've found an outlet that has inspired me and given me something to work towards. It's not currently working out too well, but I noticed that it did lift my spirits and helped me to focus on more positive things overall. It's not a magic cure but it certainly has helped.

On the worst days it's the thought of "if I don't do this the people who depend on me will suffer for my inaction." It ducks but I just limp through the day and try to do things to lift my spirits.

Try to not beat yourself up over it all. It doesn't help. I say that but I do it all the time. I just hope that you find something that works for you and I hope we all have brighter days in the future.