Had a very strange dream last night. It was lovely. A big party (I think it was a wedding). All sorts of people were there including some people I haven't seen for years. And one family member in particular was there and happy and we have a beautiful talk about how she is feeling happy and healthy and everything is wonderful.

Then you wake up and remember that person died nearly a decade ago. I don't really believe in that sort of heaven but its so nice to think they are at peace and happy (and watching - I certainly still talk to her all the time in my head). But man oh man am I feeling fragile today. Just needed to tell someone before I have a coffee and put my game face on for work. Hug your loved ones peeps.