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As a transbian, Cis women and Lesbian Spaces scare me (lemmy.dbzer0.com)
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I feel like I need to get this off my chest...

I started transitioning 5 years ago and at this point, I 100% pass, except for voice and a very slight beard shadow (that for some reason no one but me notices).

I feel completely scared about Lesbian spaces, and Cis women in particular. The few times I went out there (which was in the first 2 years of my transition), I've had horrible experiences.

It ranges from a few agonizing glances you get occasionally, up to outright comments about "this is a women only space btw".

I've also often noticed how cis lesbians seem to treat me differently when it comes to romantical and sexual interest. The moment it's revealed that I'm trans, things seem to shift. "Oh, I've never tried this", "oh, that's interesting, kinda", quite often there's the question about bottom surgery ("this might be a bit intimate to ask, but..."), and sometimes even outright ghosting or immediate disinterest.

I feel like this is the last, and yet hardest mountain to climb, to the point where I just feel too frustrated to even try, accepting the fact that, well... I will probably always remain a trans woman, and won't fit in to those societies that I so heavily relate to when I can keep my pseudonimity.

And yeah, T4T is a thing, it's pretty much the only thing I got going at this point...

Can anyone relate? Has anyone managed to overcome this hurdle?

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[-] flora_explora@beehaw.org 2 points 1 year ago

Yeah, it's just so frustrating. Although I guess dating in the digital age is hard and frustrating all by itself. But at least cishet people have a certain dating pool, not like us :/ I actually hardly know any trans women or trans feminine people IRL. The ones I do know I don't really get along with. The only trans women I could bond with I only knee through online spaces. This makes it even harder for me (us) to face trans-specific issues. Dealing with internalized transphobia or just having a person who deeply understands what is going on inside of you because they face the same issues would sometimes help a lot...

Hm, maybe you could still get to know this friend and hope? Just because she is cis doesn't necessarily mean she wouldn't be into you. (At least two cis lesbians were into me at one point!) But maybe just try to keep your expectations in check and if you're really lucky it'll work out somehow ;)

And I feel you on being poly. I had a really great casual thing with a non-binary person but in the end they wanted to be exclusive and were searching for the one love. Unfortunately this wasn't not for me...

[-] iso@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Well yeah, I'll give it a try nonetheless, but my expectations are incredibly low, since I doubt there might be anything happening... let's see.

Gotta say though, long term does work out okay-ish as long as you're reasonably close. My fiancee lives in northern germany, and even though visitting her takes aeound 10h by train, it's doable ever so often an very great. Still, LDR sucks, since traveling back again leaves a deep hole :/

[-] flora_explora@beehaw.org 2 points 1 year ago

Good luck then!

And yes, I feel you, I had a LTR with someone from northern England. That wasn't fun either, always feeling like shit when we could see each other only a few times per year :/

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