The oodie is Mickey's, always was.

I did it!!!! I sent the email AND I FEEL AMAZING. I couldn't figure out how to explain that I sent this way past when I should have, so I just opened the email with this:

Hi,

Thank you for your patience over the past few months, I was unable to finish writing a reply due to force majeure.

sentence about what the email is about

With this new request there is ample documentation, coherent and eloquent arguments, all accompanied with supporting evidence that should imbue a greater sense of understanding regarding the request upon reading.

Regards, name

Attached with literally what I had wrote all those months ago (polished with an hour of proof reading + fixing up citations). It was this easy to do, but apparently it was easier to have panic attacks instead... I'm just so glad it's over, now I can finally read and action the "new" emails I have pilled up over the past couple of months!

So I have ended up moving, and they opted to send me to an Airbnb rather than another hotel. It's pretty nice. The department and its sub organisations seem to have an exclusivity deal with Quest apartment hotels, so i think an Airbnb worked out cheaper for them than another week in a quest.

Although people buying as many houses as they can solely to use them as an Airbnb sucks and has definitely damaged the housing market, I do like the idea behind it of being able to rent your home out while you're on vacays or whatever. It comes with the added perk that it feels homely.

This place is pretty old, but so is my house, so I don't really mind. Plus I get a washing machine, so I can do all of the washing from the last week in the span of a day. Fun!

Edit: also I'm in Brunswick, so I think I need to become trendy now

Came home last night to this:

Mr P reckons he fell through his bed, tried to fix it and couldn't, and then smashed it up and threw it out onto the garden he's just spent ages trying to tidy up. Now he's sleeping on a mattress on the floor. I talked about getting a new bed, but my MIL said "how ridiculous! bloody leave him there and he can enjoy it!" With all the kerfuffle, nobody remembered to put the bins out 🤦🏼‍♀️😭

Changed the car insurance to a monthly payment, which costs a little more but is more manageable for me. With Elders therapy appointments, his laptop needing to be taken to get fixed, and the possibility of having to buy a new bed (and the Minipeelers are due new mattresses as well) the cheaper annual payment is not really an option anymore.

Good morning everyone! 🤣

I've been procrastinating sending off an important email for about three months now. I did 95% of the email (basically a structured essay with thorough citations) and got stat decs done to back it up, plus all the other supporting documents I need. Since then I've been having severe anxiety about finishing it every day and I haven't touched it since. My cursed ADHD + anxiety combo has had me in a vicious cycle of not doing anything about it yet worrying still. I'm kept up at night with the dread of not finishing such a simple task, completely helpless to and at the mercy of my shoddy executive functioning.

Today, I'm breaking that cycle. I'm fucking going to proof read it and send it off even if it's not "perfectly" done, it's going to happen despite all my brain's attempts at stopping it. I'm not happy with it, but it's better late and imperfect than never and forgotten.

I'll find out tomorrow apparently about the interview from yesterday. I've prayed to every deity I think of. Goodnight all ❤️

This sounds stupid but I made a music section I've been trying to for almost 20 fucking years. I figured out the right formula after so much experimentation. I could hear it in my head but couldn't figure out the right ingredients to get it together.

It only goes for 30 seconds but it's been eluding me for so fucking long. And now it's done.

Fuck. Finally!!!!!!!

I have been on leave in the last week, travelling with an old family member (a farewell tour of sorts - I don't think she will be doing more big trips). I am feeling very melancholy. So glad I have been able to help her, and sad to see someone so strong and independent getting old and frail.

Anyway this is your lil Wednesday reminder to say thanks to your body, no matter how much trouble it gives you. Getting old sucks arse

I'm being watched

Melbourne airport management "Rail link? Nah. Fix international arrivals? Nah. New hotel? Sure!"

Honestly this state is a joke at times.

https://archive.is/20240626024232/https://www.smh.com.au/traveller/travel-news/new-two-in-one-230-million-hotel-ready-to-open-at-melbourne-airport-20240614-p5jlvs.html

Colleague who's also job searching told me her application for WFH insurance gig was rejected pre-interview (she has much relevant experience), and that there were 850 applicants for the role 😬😬

Strange person at gym, interrupting me mid set by waving their hands in front of me: can you please guard this machine for me, I’ll be in [other area] for maybe 10 minutes in case someone takes machine.

How about you come back to the machine when you’re ready to use it?

Had a lovely trip to Melbourne. Weather was great. I got to see my brother and neices. We went to dinner at La Bon Ton (which was delicious, but my God can someone get place some proper lighting) then we watched the first quarter of North v Melbourne before going to see Seinfeld perform.

It was my first ever time seeing a comedian live and it was hilarious. I'm gonna have to check out some more.

Even went on a few 'dates' from those oh-so-fun dating apps. I get like zero matches back home, but flying into melbourne my phone was pinging and I was basically feeling like that Nic Cage Con-Air meme with his long, luscious hair. They both knew I lived in Tassie so it was really meeting as friends, but it was nice to talk to people again. My conversational skills have definitely improved at least.

Came back home yesterday, definitely caught something. Probably from my neices. Feeling run down and throat has a weird taste. Stuck a swab up my nose but no COVID.

Back to the grind today :(

Hooray, I got the heater going, it's a warmer night here.

Good night everyone. 😘

Good morning world!(but not the guy who revs his car at 6am on my street)

I wfh so my brain has resorted to dreaming about bus rides in the dark through fog

Fucking Mozzies, it's supposed to be mozzie season or winter, not both. >:(

I got a vintage 60s aussie made merino jumper from the op shop, checked it really carefully, it still came up with a few holes after I washed it, just tiny ones but it's annoying. It's really nice so I'll sew it up.

wondering if Thornbury has any tips or advice on shopping and care of jumpers? TYVMIA

Existential question for Wednesday - do I turn on the heater or not? Pros/cons balance out atm.

Wondering if a knockoff oodie is worth it

Picked up some lamb on discount today and cooked up. I forgot how heavy lamb was and it was nice and tasty though the chips did have quite a bit of fat.

Full now though and ready to relax for the evening.

I tried to get an early night last night and hopped into bed at 8, but I just couldn't slip into sleep. I took a mg of melatonin and it didn't work, so I took another after an hour or so. By 2am I'd taken 4mg and still couldn't sleep. It was honestly really weird. I was tired and could barely open my eyes, but just couldn't click into the sleep zone. I wasn't really thinking about anything, I was just laying with my eyes closed. I've never had that happen to me before

(And I was moderately tired when I got into bed, which makes it stranger)

One of last night’s dreams involved being on a cruise ship and sharing a room with some friends. Unfortunately I missed the first two days of sailing and when I boarded, I asked the friends to show me where the room was and they had no idea. We then walked laps of the back corner of the ship looking for the room and it was no where to be found. I woke up feeling tired from hauling around my luggage! Think I’m feeling a bit of the mental load lately, which logically, I have no need to.

Shoulder is sore today from overworking it yesterday, pills aren't doing much to take the edge off the pain is more pronounced today so I guess it's really just a strain or something.

I think i"m going to ice it up when i get home today.

I guess at the same time I might save my grocery shopping till the weekend as much as I'm tempted today after work.

Going to take it easier today while I'm at work and not use my left arm as much.

Sometimes I think there is crack in Pad Thai. I just cannot stop myself from eating the whole takeaway serve.

Back to work, saw the papou and most importantly the papou's next of kin.
Remember how I asked them to let them know I had the 'rona because he was showing symptoms and I was worried he had it, and he's a nonagenerian with health issues up the wazoo? "No, they never told me nothing." 🤦🏻‍♀️ Fuck's sake.
Plus to top it off he had symptoms. "Yeah I thought it was just a cold, I better test myself." Yeah mate, might be an idea.

ugh, woke up with mild coffee withdrawals

Tried the Kmart unscented moisturiser - I had my fingers crossed but within seconds there was a faint growing sting. Guess I have to keep getting the one that does seem to be ok.

Life is a sensory nightmare 👍

I have developed an awful mouth ulcer just in front of the top of my lower left teeth so it stings even when I open my mouth and my teeth brush past it. To say nothing of attempts to eat anything. This is not helping my mood. Might have to bust out the salt rinse and Kenalog. I need an "off" switch for tonight so I can just start again tomorrow morning...

The ceebs are raging today oh my god. I need to focus and just get this shit done but of course my stupid brain has to feel Emotions around sending people news they don't want to hear.