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I lost my job earlier this year. Trying to be optimistic and look on the bright side, I thought that at the very least, I'd be able to finally tackle my never ending to-do list. I was going to get so many things done and wipe that thing out.

I have gotten a lot done, but my my to-do list is longer than ever. There's always something new that needs my attention. And a lot of the things on my list are recurring (monthly, quarterly, yearly, etc) so they just show back up on the list eventually anyway.

I'd settle for ONE week where I don't have uni or work, or prep work for either (half my job is prep from home), zero medical appointments (I average 2-3 rn), zero chores and errands (cooking would be fine), and zero messages to answer. AND none of those to catch up on after. Can't fathom how much that would heal me.

I'd be overwhelmed and convinced someone hates me again within two months but man does that sound nice

I certainly feel this one. The Todo list especially. I was just saying last night how sad it is I bought a new game 3 weeks ago and forgot to play it until last night. Always busy with nonsense

At least they know what they want.

I highly doubt that world actually help, as the underlying problem stays exactly the same.

I am on my way there... my apartment is getting cleaner, room by room. Sometimes I relapse and most of my good work is undone but slowly but surely I am gaining the discipline and mental stability to beat my self-neglect and win my life back from this fucking depression.

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