I had a pretty good week overall. My favorite highlight was going to Denver Botanic Gardens for their annual Blossoms of Light. They hang lights on all the trees and structures, and it's magical (see pic below)!

As you may have seen by my post on Saturday, I did not have a great morning in terms of executive functioning, but it got better. It's so helpful to have a supportive partner, and I got fucking lucky in this regard.

And then this coming week? My son is off school, so I took some time off as well. So excited about that! For Thanksgiving, I ordered a Beef Wellington from a local restaurant. Never had it before, and really looking forward to trying it.

I have been reading a lot of your comments on other posts, and I'm still so angry to hear all of your stories about misdiagnosis or being dismissed and treated poorly by the medical community. My inner justice warrior wants to do something about it, and I already do in my profession (I'm a therapist), but I want to do more. If you have any ideas, please let me know.

Had a pretty good weekend but decided I needed to call off today. We just made through one of our busiest seasons last week, had my birthday this weekend, Thanksgiving coming this week at my cousins house, who passed away last week. My best friend who passed away a few years ago, her bday is tomorrow. I decided I wanted to skip my meds and enjoy coffee and an empty house after everyone else left for work. I wallowed in some some sorrow and some past due self care. Then did some house care for feeling guilty playing hooky. I'm in my 40s and I think this is the first actual mental health day I have ever taken from work. It was kinda nice in the end. Felt really productive overall for a caffeine over meds day in the middle of some crazy stressors.

Whew. Thanks for the safe space to kinda tell all this to. I'm winding down so I can prepare for my new start of the week and this helped to share and kinda get it out.

I hope all of you have a wonderful week and if celebrating, stay safe in that holiday traffic and enjoy some good food!

This week as well as last week, I am still waiting for my diagnostic report to tell me if I have ADHD or not - the sessions were in September. The wait time has been announced, but I am still impatient, which is kinda fitting, I guess... While it is clear to me, my therapist and the diagnostician that I likely have some kind of neurodivergence, it's not quite clear if ADHD is the ticket. Which also makes sense - if it was super-obvious, somebody would have noticed before my thirties, I hope. I guess I'll know soon enough.

Either way, I still find the ADHD communities such as this one very, very relatable, so if it's alright, I'll just stay on even if I didn't meet the diagnostic criteria. :)

That’s a really pretty picture.

Today was my first day back from vacation. So many emails... I just kept scrolling through all the unread and felt defeated. I allowed myself extra distractions today while trying to at least prioritize things, but it ended up being a surprisingly productive day somehow. On to tomorrow.