From my experience people on the sites (lemmy, etc.), are way kinder, more respectful and accepting, than people, I meet in real life. That might also be my problem as I'm autistic and find almost any in-person comunication confusing.

A person who I used to look up to tried grooming me. Needless to say they underestimated both my age AND my intelligence.

Multiple times when people want me to die for just -existing- but over the years of it, it's hurts less and less. But still very damaging though.

I remember getting one from a fascist saying they wanted to "tie people like [me] up and drag their bodies from [their] truck"

My feelings? not that I remember. My faith in humanity though...

Any time I watch settlers talk about Black people on the internet it reminds me we have made no real material progress towards liberation in the West, and likely never will until the West as we know it has fallen in. That's a regular pain; psychic damage, despair and rage at the same time.