i still don't even have a Blahaj. i would much rather cuddle with a person though.
Thanks cowboy, and yes it's been nice.
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But I also feel like I've been numb for so long that this sudden capacity for feeling, mixed with these new relationships, has just melted me down to my very core and left me more distraught than I otherwise would have been. It's one thing to be lonely, but it's quite another to feel so connected and loved by others and yet unable to ever be in their presence. I was more positive when I made my original post searching for friends, but this time I'm just...I don't even know. I came here to distract myself, and I figured I may as well do this now, call out to the void to save me. But there's no one coming. I don't have hope that anything will come of these threads. I don't think I'm likely to find anyone. I just wish this were all easier. I wish I could just meet my friends and feel a sense of calm wash over me, allowing me to relax and breath easy, knowing everything will be okay. I need to be strong for others, but I also struggle to be strong for myself, and I wish I could just cry with my friends. I've cried enough tears in solitude, and I don't wanna feel trapped anymore. I can't continue like this; I need an escape from the pain.
you are loved. never forget that Keris ❤️
yes definitely. i wish the world were a nicer and safer place, but alas.
i've met someone from an online datin app before, so i'm not totally in the new here. of course i was still closeted back then, and it's very different now...but yeah, i know some public places to meet, and i would def make loved ones aware of my location and plans and stuff.
thank you for looking out for me 😊
idk if it makes sense to repy to you here like this, since matrix is like my home now, but thank you very much for the support. it means a lot 😊 and yeah, if i don't have much luck in this specific community, i might cast a bigger net. we shall see.
I'm not sure where you are
I'm in southeast Louisiana. I've been doing laser for my whole body since I started HRT, but I've only done three sessions on my...delicate region. I'm just concerned about the permanence of laser and the wait for surgery. One of the reasons I'm considering evacuating to a safe state on the west coast is that I could hopefully have the surgery covered by my insurrance.
Was 4 months for the consultation and almost a year for the surgery.
I've heard some people suggesting that some surgeons have a wait list of three to five years, and I absolutely cannot wait that long. One year is already long enough to consider.
Thank you for your comment ❤️
Thank you very much for the information!
I'm still pre-op, doing laser, and procrastinating on investigating surgeons in blue cities. My doctor had said that some people take it forever, and some only temporarily. So that's why I was curious about your perspective, as someone who is basically where I want to be.
You doctor's hesitancy is concerning. I hate this overall trend of gatekeeping health care, like the current mess in the UK. That PhilosophyTube video about trans healthcare in the UK was an eye-opener for me as to how seriously toxic the healthcare system there had gotten.
And as far as the slight increase in chance of breast cancer (matching cisgender women), I had told my doctor from the start that I'd prefer breast cancer than ending things myself. Worst case, I die while transitioning and am at least able to feel joy in my final days. As a child, I never thought I would live past 30, but now I actually feel joy and a desire to keep going.
Thank you again for sharing some personal information with me ❤️
My story? Which one? lol
Okay, I'm gonna try to keep this somewhat short. Before we begin, I'd like to note that I'm a 90's bitch. Okay, on to the story.
So when I was a little kid, maybe around 5, my grandparents were babysitting me at their house. My grandpa was on the couch watching TV, my grandma was doing something in the kitchen, and I was sitting at the table behind them having a snack. Whatever was on TV, I don't remember, but I do remember something.
There was some news segment that came on, and I think it must have been about a trans woman having had bottom surgery. My grandma was shocked and appalled, exclaiming stuff like "Now why would anyone do that?! Chop his penis off like that?!" And my grandpa was also appalled, and I think he loudly mumbled some transphobic stuff in disgust. Well, I sat there at the table behind them thinking stuff like "Wow. I completely understand wanting that. But I guess that's not okay, so I won't say anything."
The End. lol. I have to stop there or it'll get dark.
So yeah, bottom surgery has been on my mind for quite a while. I've got more stories, but I think this is good for now.
I have to agree with you on this. Smooth is ❤️🔥️
After getting all smooth, thigh-highs and a skirt with a cute top is also really nice. And tucking completes it for me. 🥰️
Welcome welcome! 🥳️
I've been on HRT for over a year, and I haven't experimented with makeup yet, except for my brows. Well I recently got some stuff and am going to try it out in a little while.
I've been boy-moding until now, but my breast growth is enough to make boy-moding difficult now. So I need to learn my makeup style to complete my fem look.
Hopefully all goes well for both of us! 🥰️
I'd like to respond to some of the things discussed in this thread, but I don't want to directly reply to anyone. I just want to share my perspective, not argue.
Transgender is currently accepted as an umbrella term and includes a variety of identities. What these identities have in common is that they are not cisgender. Disagreements about which identities fall under the trans umbrella are really about the specificity of the label itself. Some people seem to want the umbrella to be split into two distinctly different labels, with one being specifically for trans people who seek medical transition.
It all comes down to the definition of transgender as an umbrella term. Definitions of terms change, and it's not unreasonable to think that transgender may change meaning again in the near future. But right now, "not cisgender" is what defines transgender identities, and that includes non-binary people and trans people that don't seek medical transition.
As someone medically transitioning by HRT and seeking SRS, my identity is not diminished in any way by acknowledging the validity of other identities. My recent meme explicitly explains my desire for SRS, and there was no push-back. That's because I was explaining my own transition and not attempting to define other people.
Not all trans people seek medical transition, and that's valid. Not all trans people seeking medical transition want both HRT and SRS, and that's also valid. And what trans people want for themselves can change. It's important that non-cisgender people be accepted as transgender so they can accept themselves. Big questions about possible medical transition can be decided later.
Our enemies are the transphobes attacking our freedoms. Let's be kind to our fellow trans people.
❤️
-Emma-
joined 10 months ago
OMG WTF!!!
HOW are you this GORGEOUS?!?
that figure! the long thick flowing hair! those legs! and then the dress, bow, and socks to show it all off!!
my envy burns 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
(seriously wtf, you are ✨gorgeous✨)