Artist here. Gesso makes flimsy paper more durable, better able to withstand wetness, layering. I've used spray adhesive, various liquid adhesives that can turn paper more stiff, solid, crisp. Maybe try calling an art supplies store, they might have ideas

Predestination. If you haven't seen it, you might like it.

Guy in my apt complex. Gang stuff, drugs, jail, now he's turning it all around. Both of us spent years in homeless shelters, we trade war stories. He just got a job, bagger at a grocery store. We're both struggling, overwhelmed, but seeing him employed gives me hope.

Yesterday I blocked politics, worldnews, and similar. Feed was becoming nasty, depressing, everyone arguing, complaining, criticizing, trolls, strawmen. Literally people saying it all sucks, nothing matters, everybody's a liar, there is no point, why bother...

Since blocking, way better experience on lemmy.

Lack of commitment, follow through, cowardice preventing me from doing what I really want to do.

Which means, I don't have that out. I can curl inward, f*ck everything, I'm done, and everything gets worse and worse. Not sustainable.

If I'm stuck here, no way out, I suppose only way left is to try to figure out how to get out of this dark space. It doesn't have to be fixed all at once. Just do one small good thing for yourself. Give yourself time to heal, recover. Take it slow. The only way things can change is by actions. Take a shower. Go to goodwill, spend $ on clothes that isn't sweatpants and tattered t-shirts. ..

If I keep at this, one small step at a time, I'm laying in a solid foundation, preparing for that point in future where I'll be able to go back to that goodwill, ask if they're hiring. Sure, not the cushy $75k job you had b4 becoming homeless. It's better than staying on SSI, trapped below poverty level in overcrowded slums.

Only way to move forward is to keep trying.

THANK you. There's been so much negative trolling on lemmy, really getting me down. Seeing your post actually reminded me I need to re-register.

Oil pastels, gesso, abstract expressionism.

Photography, surreal, trees blowing in wind, fire trucks lighting up a neighborhood.

Creative writing, dream journal.

Mixed media, found art.

Researching, reading.

Been playing same Sims save for over 3 years, building a complex society, realistic infrastructure.

Yes. Lot of apps on phone don't work well together. Watch a YouTube video, while using music player, then a camera video file... one will stop.

Phone is for internet, texting, games. Sometimes just want to listen to music, doing it on phone gets too complicated. My tiny mp3 player fits in pocket, just slide on, click once, music instantly plays. It can hold 100 gigs of music, trying to fit that on my phone, would have to sacrifice other files.

Mid twenties, I bought two items at a luggage store near the Castro in sf. One was a weekend bag for camping, or visiting another city, can hold 3 days of clothes. Another was a small bag for daily use. Lesbian here, I don't carry purses, just bags the size of purses, way more functional.

I'm late 40s now. Traveled, wandering, homelessness, camping, backpacking, have put those bags thru hell for over 20 years. They still look brand new. The small black bag, still use daily. I'm constantly astounded by what I can fit in it. It's like the tardis.

2 decades ago I got the cutest kitten from the local shelter. I loved that cat. Started to notice, he was getting increasingly skittish around me. I realized cuz... I didn't realize I was doing it, I was never mean. but whenever he'd jump on me, wake me up, scratch something... my freaked out, startled response I think started to scare him.

Would love to get another cat, but that it might become scared, uneasy around me... don't want to risk it.

I'm already tried most all suggestions. Bed away from wall, low bed frame, made of wood, not metal, anti vibration pads. This is an old apt filled with addicts, mental health issues. No job, on ssi, can't move, unless I want to be homeless again. Trying to make what I have works. Only response I got, haven't tried, was platform on springs, rollers. Tks to everyone.

Oh, talking to neighbor, landlords, not applicable. Cops, screaming, fights breaking out, meth heads, everyone smoking cigs in their apartments... someone with anger issues simply slamming doors ... it can be so much worse. Trying to cope best I can

Took over 400 sedative type pills in under 40 minutes, tried to o.d. homeless shelter staff found my unconscious body covered in puke the next morning. From an hour after taking pills to 18 hours later... complete black, like I wasn't here. Coming back to this reality was slow, painful, surreal. Nurses afterward said I nearly died, or did die and they brought me back.

An experience unlike any other.