By the way: I read your comment about hearing voices. I've heard voices since childhood, was minor, infrequent. But recently stress, trauma I was having hearing voices all the time, speaking clearly. Persecution, terrorizing. Felt like I was going insane
Very specific, wouldn't have considered Buddhist podcasts. =) I'll try to find some.
Safe, sane, consensual.
Me: I understand but don't get why...
Therapist: And. You understand AND don't get why...
I play Sims, a lot. There are 2 youtube peeps who crack me up continually. Callmekevin, and graystillplays.
Gray would create insane, large scale survivor style scenarios, like what will happen if we lock 100 people in one room. Or. Let's keep 50 sim children trapped underground, give them a bar, dog houses to sleep in, see who survives. He's quick witted, funny as hell, but never crude or vulgar.
Callmekevin... think mental illness, cults, agoraphobia, social isolation. His are sad and hilarious and dark in a different way.
Entry hallway has black light tapestries. Very large tapestry of tree and fairy lights over bed. All 3 tapestries, $40 on Amazon. 2 framed paintings of day of dead women, got for cheap in local latino hood. A small USB powered projectors covers walls, ceiling with animated aurora borealis. The first 100 digits of pi, written with colored markers.
Wild zero, holy heck. Bizarre, surreal movie
Yakkity yak
Took over 400 sedative type pills in under 40 minutes, tried to o.d. homeless shelter staff found my unconscious body covered in puke the next morning. From an hour after taking pills to 18 hours later... complete black, like I wasn't here. Coming back to this reality was slow, painful, surreal. Nurses afterward said I nearly died, or did die and they brought me back.
An experience unlike any other.
Was in a hotel. Hadn't slept in a week. Woke up, leaned over to get out of bed. Still asleep, slipped crashed hard into sharp bed table corner. Even asleep, quick reflexes meant I didn't cave my skull in. Instead, I found myself in a ball on the floor, my arm split open , entire forearm blue black and purple, gushing blood. Still have a scar from it 2 years later.
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Goodwill stores, at least where i live, are good for people in shaky situations. More accepting of people with special needs, circumstances. Mention cuz, not the type of work you're looking for... for me, been out of work so long (8 years), me getting a p/t job at goodwill, committing, proving i can keep it, it's the only way better paying jobs will take me seriously.
Would like the 75k per year tech job I had b4 becoming homeless. But have to be realistic, start small.