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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by Anomandaris@kbin.social to c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone

Sorry in advance for the depressing thread, but I don't have anyone in my life with trans experiences and I need advice on what I'm feeling.

As much as we might wish we could waking up one morning with the body of a gorgeous k-pop idol or something, the fact is reality doesn't work that way. And this kind of thing is what I'm struggling with the most, the fact that I'm always going to struggle with body hair and masculine features.

I was on HRT for one month, and still have the relevant medications in my bathroom, but stopped. Partially due to lack of support, but mostly due to self-doubt and lack of confidence that I'll ever be happy with how I look. I just couldn't see the woman inside coming out.

I kept asking myself: what would be worse? Constantly wishing I could successfully transition, or transitioning and having to live with never being able to pass? This became additionally concerning with the uptick in abuse against trans people.

Part of me feels guilty for stopping and falling back on the safe suffering I already know, and a part of me feels guilty for giving up, part of me is scared of all the new things I'll have to learn if I re-start, and another part of me is concerned about how my partner would feel if I started again, I know she doesn't approve but doesn't want to say so.

For those of you who are/were larger, or taller, or older, or more hairy, how did you manage these concerns? For those of you without resources in your life to aid your transition, how did you get support?

Thank you for reading.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 25 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

This is a horrible take. Absolutely awful, ultra-capitalist drivel. Why does every action or accomplishment have to be viewed through the lense of economic benefit? Not even holistic or utilitarian, just stakeholders and making the ultra-wealthy even wealthier... Who gives a fuck about space tourism? What the hell does that give us as a species?

The original comment about the importance of aerospace and space exploration is absolutely correct, but the idea that the end goal is space tourism is more than enough to make me turn against it also. The end goal is exploration, technological advancements, and a greater understanding of how our universe works. We should be taxing the ever-loving shit out of sociopaths like Musk and Bezos and feeding some of that in to NASA, and ESA, so scientists can make discoveries for us all, rather than businessmen making discoveries so they can exploit, gatekeep, and profit off it.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 24 points 1 year ago

And the rest of the developed world is going to follow close behind as long as the wealth inequality stays as ridiculously broken as it is.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 19 points 1 year ago

gold checkmark identifying that the account belongs to a verified brand.

Blue checkmark and gold checkmark are different things.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 17 points 1 year ago

Surely you can reverse that and point out corporations whining and moaning about people expecting free content when they're barely paying their employees enough to afford to pay their bills.

The problem starts with corporate greed, hoarding revenue by keeping employee's salaries to the minimum acceptable, providing as little functionality as possible to reduce overheads, double dipping by selling a product/subscription and then selling their customer's data, and then complaining they aren't getting more money for what little they are doing.

Then inevitably a little guy like Kbin comes along and suffers because the internet is filled with soulless, ultra-capitalist corpo scumbags.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 35 points 1 year ago

RedHat, CentOS, Debian, Ubuntu.

All are good choices.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 22 points 1 year ago

But the other side of that is no political accountability. There's no risk of punishment, so why should they care? Insider trading, corruption, nepotism, general lying, acting in bad faith, and intentionally misrepresenting facts to disrupt useful debate.

Politicians get away with all of that and more, and get paid massive amounts of money, above and below the table, while they do it.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 41 points 1 year ago

It's so weird to me, what do they expect to happen to the economy of their state when their workforce has such a poor education?

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 198 points 1 year ago

-50% ad revenue says otherwise

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 39 points 1 year ago

It would be interesting to see exactly how Meta is managing to block VPN users. Is it simply a matter of looking up instagram or facebook account related to email addresses used to sign up? Is it evaluating some sort of browser fingerprint? That's assuming VPN users are doing so via desktop, if it's an Android device for example is the OS itself providing information that's not getting obfuscated by the VPN?

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 38 points 1 year ago

This is the issue with the new "own nothing, subscription only" and "if you're not the customer, you're the product" type models. Everyone went to Threads to take a look at the brand new thing, but now everyone has seen the new thing they're gone.

All the hype that was built up initially based on that curiosity comes across as arrogance and empty promises as users inevitably get bored of the new shiny thing that's really just another attempt to harvest them for their metadata and ad-sense.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 17 points 1 year ago

Although it may very well be caused by Twitter running out of money, which would be corroborated by Twitter's lack of payment to various other parties. Giving Musk three options: Use more of his own money, admit defeat and massively scale back Twitter's functionality and availability, or try to scam money out of other people.

Clearly he's not willing to spend his own money, or admit failure.

[-] Anomandaris@kbin.social 24 points 1 year ago

Interesting, isn't it? When you have a problem with Twitter they send you a poop emoji, but when Twitter has a problem they fire off a cease-and-desist within hours. Elon is the perfect capitalist.

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Does anyone have experience getting tModLoader to run properly? When I try it with the Steam snap, using Proton, the game loads fine but when I get in to a world it goes black except for the UI.

Other threads have a few solutions, like using the Steam linux runtime instead of Proton, and running the start-tModLoader.sh file from terminal before trying to play. But these didn't work for me.

Does anyone know how to get it working?

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Spurred by the move to non-proprietary software I swapped out my Windows 11 for Ubuntu 22.04 LTS, and now 3 out of the 4 games I regularly play don't work well enough to play. I haven't checked games I only play occasionally, but I expect issues there too...

  1. Path of Exile via Steam - Works perfectly, in fact maybe slightly better than Windows
  2. Overwatch 2 via Lutris - Runs but with significant stuttering making it difficult to play
  3. Diablo 4 via Lutris - Cannot run due to "Graphics Initialization failed" error
  4. Melvor Idle via Steam - Runs but with minor stuttering and randomly breaks requiring complete re-install

I've Googled, and tried the most common solutions to these problems (like configuring Lutris to use VKD3D v2.8, running the script that Lutris provides with Overwatch, and add D4 to Steam and run from there) but no real positive changes.

For the most part, the rest of Ubuntu has been fine, but I don't want to be locked out of doing things I want to do on my own machine... Would appreciate any tips before I get too impatient and go back to Windows!

Thanks in advance.

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It's a slightly click-baity title, but as we're still generating more content for our magazines, this one included, why not?

My Sci-fi unpopular opinion is that 2001: A Space Odyssey is nothing but pretentious, LSD fueled nonsense. I've tried watching it multiple times and each time I have absolutely no patience for the pointless little scenes which contain little to no depth or meaningful plot, all coalescing towards that 15 minute "journey" through space and series of hallucinations or whatever that are supposed to be deep, shake you to your foundations, and make you re-think the whole human condition.

But it doesn't. Because it's just pretentious, LSD fueled nonsense. Planet of the Apes was released in the same year and is, on every level, a better Sci-fi movie. It offers mystery, a consistent and engaging plot, relatable characters you actually care about, and asks a lot more questions about the world and our place in it.

It insists upon itself, Lois.

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