Ive had a hard life that i dont really want to talk about especcialy online, so ive be feel depressed an unmotivated for a bit now. i heard exercising helps but is that true where do you even get motivation to start working out? i do bascily the same things everyday and i just want to do more in my life because its getting bland-er... also if you want to share a short life story go ahead, i feel im more in the idea department/creative department but yet i do nothing and my head i cloaded with life. i feel like i should put more here but ill just leave it here.

I have trouble finding english manga actually i havent found any online yet, most places are for books or in something i cant read. manga is pricey so i thought i could maybe print my own for personal use and to learn a new skill but that seems dumb, either way i want to read manga.

i dont want to download one chapter at a time i would rather want to download one book at a time becasue of ocd. my librairy tends to be out of manga most of the time and have a long waitlist.

also i did read the wiki but most sites dont have what im looking for and i cant read them becasue there not in english, im looking for manga like, one punch man, all you need is kill, bleach?, etc.

So i have (i think) no mucical talent becasue in school i was always bad at music classes and was behind compared to others also i coudent stand all the noises going on. im not sure why but i wanted a keyboard pinao becasue i like the way they sound, once i got one i tried to have some folks teach me but i imeditly got overwhelmed by eveything that goes into playing an instument.

so by chance is there an affordbale instrument for beginner that can be worked on also what can one do once they learn an instument? is it just a skill to show off to others? i pretty much stink at everything but im trying to improve at life or my life more like it. i was thinking of writting songs or doing covers but im not entirly sure how that works.

my hobbys/interests often change often but thats normal (hopefully) and hopefully no one is getting annoyed by me.

ive only really had fish but ther enothing close to a buddy like, something like a dog or a cat. pets are also pricey and im allergic to cats and dogs plus my home is kinda messy. i do wish i could get something besides a fish but you know it is what it is.

so what type of pet do you have or what is the best type of pet to have?

im still debating wether i start a peertube channel or not, and im no pro but we all have to start somewhere. ive aksed variouse family member si know if i should do some sort of video content creation. i was thinking gaming but there are so many genres im not sure plus i have school and im worried it might make my life more stressful. does anybody here have experience with peertube, if so feel free to share something in the comments if possible. i also have somewhat of a low end pc that can manly run old titles and 2d games.

how do you even find motivation to keep posting video after video?

so is starting a peertube worth it or is now a good time to start?

so i have depression, i take meds and i talk with people about it but im also bored/empty alot and i just want something to do that is diffrent, if that makes sense. i havent read a book in quite some time and im considerd a slow reader becasue im dylexic and i lack motivation. i feel if i find a good book to help with this it might help witha few things.

i dont want a super duper brick sized book or horror, im more into anything but that also fiction like fantasy, sci-fi, cyberpunk, something that feels modern also manga but manga is more exspensive than a book, etc just no horror or anyhting weird.

also where is a good place to get physical books from at a discount?

So what goes into writting a book, can anyone do it, ive been wanting to do many things for a while but i think sense i was a kid i wanted to write a book or even a short story or something that i can publish. the thing is i have major dylexia, i tend to not plan things and instead write on the spot, also i have partiall ideas. i dont want to write fanfic but instead i want to do something more orginal. i was told i was a creative writter as a kid but im not sure about now.

im not even sure if writting a book is worth it or not i raley even read but yet i feel like something is missing in life. is there by chance a good youtube video that explains all of this?

your a side charatcer in a bad/hard anime but you dont want to be in it, what anime would that be and what would you do? also you have all you knowlege of the anime you have watched.

What are your thoughts on steam key sites? have you even bought a key from sites like g2a? are they a scam or are they cool, also do you have a story to share about steam keys.

i was planning on getting a mystery pack from g2a or whatever its called but im not sure if its a scam or not.

I ask this before (somewhere?) but most suggest paid games for some reason, im not sure why.

are there some free games from itch or steam to play when one has freetime to do things? and someday i might start recording gamplay videos, maybe it really depends on how life goes.

can you make whatever or are there rules to peertube, and why does everyone say its better than youtube? I want to make gameplay videos someday but i wasnet sure if i should use peertube, youtube, or some other thing.

what are the best peertube channels?

or would it be better to just watch videos on there?

also i could use advice on peertube/youtube or something of that nature.

So im looking for things i can make or do that dont invole a compute ror my phone, i feel like i need to stop staring at a screen as much. i dont have money either and ive been wanting to go to craft fairs but im not sure what to make or how to not look at a screen as much.

also i have depression so i lack motivation to do anyhting, but i want to be motivated im just not sure where to start also i tend to repeat questions because in a werid way, that helps me learn, but it seems to annoy others.