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"oh haha it's just like those little screw grabber tools but it looks exactly like a real spider a-"

In myself

Y'all remember when Microsoft had to shut down their AI Tay on Twitter after people got it to say racist thing and heil Hitler? Good times, glad AI was handled responsibly

Finally someone else gets it, I basically have the same sort of relationship with femininity and gender

I'm non-binary gender fluid (and it sounds like you might be too) and honestly it can be really tough sometimes just having an overwhelmingly looming but mild and ignorable sense that something about you is off, but not really knowing what

And I've tried wearing girl clothes and going by she/her, but honestly it's so hit or miss, sometimes my dresses make me dysphoric and I hate it, I hate having no clue what I am sometimes

And I'm very much of the same opinion that I wish I could just fully turn into a girl temporarily just to see if I like it, just to try it, but I know I can't, and I really really cannot bring myself to do anything more permanent than wear a skirt or makeup, not even shave my legs. as much as I want to be a girl, I don't want to not still also be a boy, sometimes I'm happiest when I'm neither, and sometimes I love being both

Gender is very weird, I'm just glad I'm gonna finally stop hiding myself soon

I don't really have any advice that I could think of, but hopefully seeing someone else with the same feelings helps u not feel alone

This feels like the equivalent of getting abducted by a superintelligent alien race, being put into a machine beyond your wildest comprehension, and then probably getting a treat and sent back home where nobody will believe you

Arch, btw

It was the distro that my friend uses all the time, and I've had to use his laptop on occasion so I'm somewhat familiar with the distro, enough so that I've installed it on persistent USBs before and already chosen it as my next OS after Windows (I would switch now, but I rode Windows 7 till the end date, so I figured I'd ride out 10 until the final day this October)

Also! Gender fluid hello!! It made me so insanely happy to see that flag in the Linux terminal, I feel so seen!! It feels like trans girls hog all the Linux spotlight this side of the fediverse, I'm happy for them! But I still don't feel like I have a proper community where I belong, especially since I stay off of all other mainstream social media >.<

So seeing another enby, another gender fluid especially, for the literal first time since I made my lemmy account just makes me so ecstatic!! We're so rare x3

Anyways, thank u for existing and simply posting this, seeing another makes me feel seen and I can't really express enough how unreasonably happy something so small just made me c:

Thank you! And I should sleep so good night also lol

damg they killed all the Internet explorers ☠️

Honestly moving to clangd has got to be the single best thing I've done in C++, it's cross platform and I've found it to be significantly faster, more reliable, and more featureful than Microsoft's C++ plugin by a long shot

If you want to do any loop and sample work FOSS style, then I'd highly highly recommend Bespoke Synth, easily the best FOSS modular DAW out there

It has a bit of a learning curve, but once you're over it then it's a pleasure to use and easily the best open source DAW I've used so far (and I've tried alot)

Biggest thing it has over LMMS: VST3 support, so you can actually use modern synth plugins like Surge XT, or dynamic EQ plugins like ZL Equalizer, or lo-fi plugins like CHOW Tape and MAIM

Although, there is a FOSS workout to get VST3 working in LMMS using KV Element, which you can load as a VST2 that itself can run VST3's.

I use to use that before Bespoke but it was very much a workaround, and I had this infuriating annoyance where KV Element would just send pitch-wheel signals to everything and detune my synths without me knowing, and I could not find any reason or fix, so I just stopped using LMMS in favor of Bespoke

Hope this helped!!!