i appreciate your heads-up about matrix but i have no time to do anything tech oriented that isnt strictly required. lemmy is only for my sad "socializing" which is mostly using it as my yelling void.
im overwhelmed with trying to improve my situation. ill avoid matrix until i have enough spacetime to do the work.
i stopped reading most docs after like 95 unless they are rfc or reference and i had a memory that was stellar
now, i read all of them over and over and over because i got a tbi from electroshock "therapy" and i am working with shitty autobiographical memories and cant get to the details. so i read, keep reading, and make sure all the mans are at hand along with my references. now i get frustrated and wanna die but i still get it done but im always like yeah uh no