[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 5 points 3 months ago

I had a unique upbringing. My father was an illiterate dyslexic (and maybe autistic himself) and he is fuckin weird - to put bluntly. That side of my family never really understood neurodivergence per-se, but they understood that everyone's a little weird - but we embraced that we're VERY weird. Hanging out with my dad's extended family is a lot of flailing, weird humor, and zany shenanigans and they embraced every moment.

My mother by contrast was more "abled" but she relished the "weirdness" that my father had in spades. Her own family had a bit of a zany streak as well - with my maternal Grandfather very obviously being undiagnosed autistic and having his own brand of severely understated and jump-scare humor.

Masking was entirely unnecessary in my family - and I can recognize the state pretty easily. It's more mentally relaxed, less hypervigilant, and generally more comfortable.

It was great not having to mask in my childhood - until I went to school and it suddenly wasn't a good thing.

Learning my masks was an absolutely agonizing process because "being myself" wasn't acceptable "out there". I felt so out of place compared to my peers. I was also bullied relentlessly to the point of PTSD. My masks eventually became automatic through the tumultuous times. It wasn't until my diagnosis in my early 30's that I even began to understand what it all was, and start deconstructing the masks.

Unmasking was as easy as accessing a "younger" me and simply not caring about the social results. (to a point)

For my echolalia, I don't hold back my vocal stimming anymore. I used to feel embarrassed and self conscious around it. Now I embrace it and have fun with it. Will you get movie trailer voice me or death metal voice me? Who knows!? Will I throw a random phrase using an English accent into an otherwise monotone statement, yoooouuu bet!

For my special interests, I LET my excitement bubble over. Sure, I might need to regain my composure from time to time, but hiding my excitement about these things nearly destroyed me. I try not to be hyper-focused though so as to allow natural conversational flow, but I also don't overly police myself anymore.

There's a few other things, but it's hard to reflect on them all.

Ultimately I'm unsure how helpful my experience is to others - it's a bit unique having a deep family culture of being really weird. I think that really helps me put my guard down and unmask. If I didn't have these memories, finding my unmasked state would be a LOT harder.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 5 points 5 months ago

I'm running a Steam OS like experience on my Lenovo Legion Go. Not quite a steam deck, but very similar.

You should be able to use the heroic launcher. And you should be able to install it as a flat pack or a snap. That will make your GOG games as easy to download and install as a steam game. If I recall correctly, it even automatically adds entries for steam.

I regularly play Bomb Rush Cyberfunk on this device using the GOG edition.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 5 points 6 months ago

Huh, now that's a classic I never thought would get a remaster/re-release! I played this a ton when I was a little kid in the 90s on my Sega Genesis.

Though I'll probably stick to purchasing on Steam. I'm steering clear of Nintendo where possible.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 5 points 6 months ago

For me, the quality of the Audio makes all the difference. Plain Old Telephone (POTs) is utter garbage and I miss so much to my audio processing issues. The VoLTE and Wifi calling quality is often far and away better and I can better understand the subtleties of whats being communicated.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 4 points 8 months ago

I've tried it before, it's fine but had issues running on wayland last I tried. Did they fix the wayland issues? Looking at the issue tracker it seems like there are still a few open Wayland issues.

kiTTY by contrast has had Wayland support for about as long as I've used it.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 4 points 10 months ago

I'll respectfully disagree if only because I had to nuke my beehaw account because apparently disagreeing that doxing extremists as an effective means of movement building or defense is tantamount to being a transphobe or Nazi sympathizer.

They say "be nice". But to me it seems like it's just a type of mean that marginalized folks find acceptable or moral.

My instance is still federated with them. But, I generally don't participate anymore. Not like I used to.

It's a shame because in the early days I was helping them out with federation issues and a few other things on their discord. Spent many late nights helping Odo troubleshoot things.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 5 points 11 months ago

They’re probably okay for most users, especially the gamer kind.

Eh, IDK - the amount of breakage I got simply trying to upgrade the system after a few days would probably be incredibly hostile to a less technical user/gamer.

Sure, if most things worked out-of-the-box and upgrades were seamless, I'd agree - but as it stands, it seems like you need to know Arch and Linux itself fairly well to get the most out of Garuda Linux.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 5 points 11 months ago

A similar thing happened to me as a kid!

One of my favorite substitute teachers saw me trying to play a homebrew RPG with typical d6's - all because I couldn't afford the actual D&D books. After a few times, he came with his old 1st edition AD&D stuff and gave it all to me.

Now, sure, it was the early aughts and folks were playing 3.0/3.5 and he gave me 1st edition books, but still!

He also gave me all of his dice. Every single one. I still have (most) of them.

I've already had a couple of chances to pay it forward a few times myself!

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 4 points 1 year ago

From what I understand this is incredibly common amongst us. Essentially picking out the "relevant" information is really hard when there's a lot of other loud signals blaring.

For my Sony headphones I have a slider to set how strong the noise cancellation is set. If it's set to anything lower than max/wind reduction you can check a box to amplify voices. It's pretty darn good.

From what I understand the Pixel Buds can also do this REALLY well, but I haven't used those. Lots of smart earbuds can do it these days, just expect to pay a couple hundred for it.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 4 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Rush - 2112 - 21 minutes and some change

Jethro Tull - Thick as a Brick - more than 40 minutes

Keygen Church - Bullug Gegbug Ibgabiug Gixcure Dagabciea Fuic - 18 minutes

And I definitely agree. It's hard to over listen to songs you have to make time for. Lol

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 4 points 1 year ago

Agree, most mainstream distros have it all handled for the most part and it normally "just works".

Now, myself on Gentoo testing on the other hand... Sometimes I shoot myself in the foot and forget to rebuild my kernel modules and wind up needing to chroot to fix things - all because I have an NVidia card.

[-] th3raid0r@tucson.social 4 points 1 year ago

I mean I take a less extreme take. But I definitely resonate. As somebody with autism, it's really nice to have an impartial chat assistant to turn my stream of consciousness wall of text into something far more digestible. Trying to do so myself often takes hours to construct a message a couple paragraphs long. Where I checked and double check and triple check for anything that might offend somebody or come across strange or not flow well. Etc etc etc.

A lot of these articles don't really investigate the accessibility aspect of these tools. And I really wish they did. I know if one of my friends used chatgpt to help with their messages, I would be completely fine with it.

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