Bit of a disappointing work today. On Friday I messed up a spreadsheet by simply copying and pasting things wrong. However, I didn't pick up on it until late today, when I had already done a heap of work on it (and spent the whole time wondering why it was throwing so many errors). I really felt like I dropped a notch in my manager's eyes, as I had to bring them in to work with me to fix the sheet, not to mention other people who I showed the report to who picked up on the same thing. Ever since my interview for this role, i've been approached by people in different departments saying 'they've heard a lot of good things about me' - apparently someone on the panel has spread word that I'm some fantastic contributor to the role, and now I feel like that reputation has been tarnished because I couldn't figure out a very simple mistake. Sigh. Wish I could just undo the last few days.

One of my friends just had her second baby and all my other friends are jumping up straightaway to visit her as soon as possible. Is it wrong that I...just don't care? I mean I'm glad she has had a safe birth, the baby is healthy etc, I sent congratulations and contributed to a baby gift but...I'm sorry i'm not chomping at the bit to come and visit and check-in.

Argh. Got a bit of a situation - interviewed for a role and they have come back and said I am a preferred candidate, but they want to follow up with reference checks. I have provided all my former managers but they said it's company policy to interview a current manager and something they need to move forward in the process.. My current manager doesn't know that I am looking for work and they've also had a few people leave the team lately (they are also kind of the culprit as to why) so I'm a bit stressed about having to bring this up with them. Any ideas?

I really need to stop looking at Linkedin. My company went a restructure this year and all the posts from my former co-workers saying they landed jobs at bigger and better organisations is filling me with jealousy. I've been trying to change jobs since the start of the year, have even been applying at similiar organisations to theirs but haven't been successful. I feel so stuck and undesired as an individual.

Incoming pity party: made it to the interview stage of a role that I really felt aligned so well with my skillset only to be told today that again, I was the runner up and there was just someone better. I really had to fight the urge not to full-on cry on the phone when they told me because I was so devastated. I was basically manifesting in my head my future with this job all week (probably not the best idea) because I thought I was such a good candidate and thought the interview went well. It's very rare for these roles to appear that suit my experience so I really felt almost like it was made for me but now all that hope is....gone. The only feedback they could give was just it went to someone who had different organizational skills so now I feel like maybe I just suck at what I do if there's people out there who can do it better.

Caught up with a mate today - we are both job hunting and they said they recently applied for a role, got through three interview stages, completed the reference check (from what they confirmed this was all positive feedback), but were then told the position ended up going to someone internal....this does not fill me with much confidence.

Ok plan for today - finish this coffee. Make egg and salami bagel sandwich. Eat bagel. Hang out washing. Vacuum house. Take some stuff to op shop. Maybe have quick rummage around op shop. Buy wine. Come home and finish job stuff. Order Ubereats for dinner. Eat and drink wine while watching Drag Race UK. End.

Going to the Star Wars MSO concert tonight! Awesome weather for it - going to knock off work early and head into the city for a drink.

For the longest time I thought Apple watches were just really obnoxious...but I ended up getting a good deal on the new SE model so I bought it and I hate to say it but...I love this thing! And especially cause I work out so much - it's been so satisfying seeing my workout data in real time.

Amen! 2023 can get in the bin

Someone on instagram posted 'ten weeks till Christmas' and now I am filled with anxiety over how fast things are going D:

I feel like this yo-yo weather is making all my houseplants sad. Don't worry guys, I feel just as wilty and confused as you do right now! On the plus side I think the humidity is helping some of them...