There's no escaping. I don't know what to do. My entire life's been fucked and I've never been free.

Thought she'd be the reason I turn my life around

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Do people actually enjoy life? I've known, superficially, people that appear happy, but I have a suspicion it's all an elaborate act. Life's mundane, and boring. It's all the fucking same. Go anywhere on the planet, the people are all the same, doing all the same things, in slight variations.

Nature's an unimaginative joke. Clones of clones with variations. Much wow. Much spiraturality. Those giant rocks changed my life. That whale spoke to me personally. That tree healed me. Are people fucking serious? Are people so cognitively inept that being reminded that there's things outside themselves, alive or not, is a life affirming act?

I just want to disappear. The older I get the more dissapointed I become. There's nothing here that gives any sense of joy. Medication doesn't work. Therapies don't work. Self-aware life is hell. If anyone's happy or content their self-awareness must be sufficiently limited. Blah, blah, blah. Just rambling. I hate this. People who have children are the worst.

The world is a terrible and horrific place.... Please discuss below!

Hows everyone doing this week?

Please feel free to chat about whatever.

My mood?: Depressed because i'm financially broke, and also super tired from working my ass off. Also my boss sux. But whats new.....

As requested: !depression_now will do a weekly wellness check in.

Come chat, vent, and complain. Share a happy story or your latest meltdown. Tell us an recent accomplishment or just chill with the people down in the dumps.

depression is a spectrum & comes in many formz. Please feel free to talk about whatever.

Ill go first: Everything, everywhere sucks all the time. But im used to that.