Well, no promises. 51 could be the top of the hill everyone says you get over, I dunno yet ;)

No bullshit though, even with the bad things that I went through in my late thirties and early forties, the age part of my forties was awesome. It's this wonderful balance of being automatically assumed to be a grown ass adult in any given situation until you prove otherwise, but also being allowed to indulge in hobbies without attention.

And, for me, that's when I hit peak confidence and self awareness.

But, I'm enjoying the hell out of fifty so far. It's like I hit a half century, and a lot of the bullshit of the world doesn't bother me as much. Something comes up, and my first thought is "well, after a half century of this kind of bullshit, this is nothing". It's like magic lol.