Again I never said it "Changes who I am" I dunno where tf you keep getting that from. And so far, Edibles IS one of the very few things that makes me remember my art book even EXISTS. If you're telling me to find some other alternatives; I'VE TRIED THEM. I wouldn't be here asking this question if I hadn't.

I don't even understand why you're coming at me the way you are, telling me some shit I already know. I explained everything in my post. that I have severe ADHD, that motivation IS IMPOSSIBLE to achieve, that I take really low doses and I'm not interested in growing or smoking anything.