I need some impartial third party advice.
I told my mom the other day that she clearly doesn't love or care about me because of the way she voted. I don't believe she can both love her trans daughter while simultaneously willingly inflicting as much suffering as possible.
I decided to block her for a few days.
My aunt, who also hated Trump, is someone I could previously confide in. She cold shouldered me after I sent her the text I had previously sent to my mom.
Finally my aunt was an adult and texted me back last night with this.
"Thought would not have any effect. Didn’t like text you sent your mom. U R on my naughty list was not nice, u owe her an apology. Election wasn’t close decisive across country broke blue wall. Like it or not will be our president next 4yrs be an adult accept & move on!! U take too personal & how it impacts you. We all have choices/decisions it’s about Respect can’t expect others to respect yours if you can’t extend the same courtesy to others. No idea what u r talking about lying never questioned or said you were on job search, good luck with that. I’m taking a long break, disappointed have my own health/medical issues to address so focusing on that & me now. Happy Thanksgiving"
Now this is a person who texted me constantly about what a "pig fucker" Trump is, then she went radio silent a week before the election. When I inquired about the post election results she said "the world isn't ready for a woman president so I didn't even vote." I have a strong feeling she actually voted for Trump and couldn't stomach telling me that to save face.
Anyways- so I did call my mom and try to apologize against my better judgement. She didn't answer so I left a voicemail. Basically I said I'm sorry I reacted that way, and I'm under a lot of stress.
She hasn't replied in text or called back continuing to cold shoulder me essentially throwing my apology in my face.
Now I'm furious. My sister cut my mom out for months because my parents wouldn't send her money for college. The second she called them back they took her in with open arms as if nothing ever happened. They never treat me that way. Brittany is the golden child of my mom and my stepdad (her current husband). The standards are entirely different for my sister and I. I've always been treated worse.
Based on this limited view of my family what should I do? I'm thinking about rescinding my apology and just cutting them out forever. To me it seems clear they don't actually care about me at all.
When I was hospitalized for three days from my bike accident my mom never came to see me. She's a 9 hour drive away. When I had my highly invasive SRS she never called to check on me when I was recovering in the hospital. She actively hated the fact I was even doing it telling me "I'll never look right."
Pretty sure she's an objectively awful human being.
As everyone has clearly stated, you need to watch out for your and your personal health and safety (mental and physical).
That said, I just want to highlight the fact that you probably shouldn't broadcast your feelings on it too bluntly (even if you are in the right) and should consider if a more middle-ground approach would be better for you compared to making a large announcement and cutting people off. To be clear, this should be primally about you and your well-being, though.
In particular, as other have stated, if you're cutting them off anyway, its probably worth considering just ghosting them. That way you can avoid fights and drama, as well as likely having less records of you being trans if you're worried about that.
If you still care about your family a lot, as it sounds like you do, it may also be worth considering trying to work out a plan for low-contact rather than completely cutting them off. For example, if you communicate mostly through social media, you might disconnect or switch to alts they don't know. If its primarily through sms but not phone, prehaps block or hide their sms messages but allow them to call you. Maybe you just need to stop visiting them or allowing visits. Your family doesn't need to know this plan or the reason for it, and probably shouldn't. For example, you could just brush it off as wanting to disconnect from social media/technology or being busy. If you want to go this route, figure you what works for you - don't do it out of obligation, but because you genuinely want to keep the connection and are confident you can do so with without putting yourself in danger. Also, be willing to re-evaluate this later, if your relationship or need change.
In the same vein, you can also start looking at moving to safer regions. I understand this is a big commitment, so I don't expect it to be a reasonable answer, esspecially in the short term, but if may be worth starting to look at whats involved. It might be complete overkill (I pray to God it is) but if you don't have significant roots, moving further away may help distance yourself from them, while also providing more security.
Ultimately, I don't think you're in the wrong, if you feel the need to resort to anything more extreme for your own well-being, don't hesitate. At the same time, it can be hard on you to lose family, reguardless of how terrible, abusive, or stupid they may be, which is why I'm bringing up some more middle-ground options. Consider your needs, and decide what the best way to achive that is - you don't need to consider their reaction or feeling when trying to figure out how to keep yourself safe and healthy.