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She didn't change; she finally revealed herself. In short, her attachment type is anxious-avoidant. That shit burns down everything around it. She was jealous AND cheating, which was just rich given that we were ENM/poly. I was so busy with life, work, and my sailboat that I only had romantic bandwidth for her.
I am forever changed. I went on an intensive therapeutic and introspective journey. Anxious-avoidant people can be immensely attractive anxious attachment types like me. I identified that in myself, addressed my own life traumas, and developed my personal boundaries. These days, I'm less poly, more monogamish. I approached dating with explicitly defined intentions and must-haves, rather than just random chance. I found the partner of my dreams, and we're about to celebrate eight years together.
Early on, there were mutual warning signs, but we both thought we had the tools to face any challenges. As I mentioned, I had poor boundaries, which now would put an immediate end to any such bullshit.
What can I offer now?
Always cringe when you see someone that's ENM cheat... Like bruh your partner is/was very cool with basically anything... And you still found a way to betray trust
Fully agreed. According to Gottman's research, relationships can survive "infidelity" just fine. It's the betrayal of trust that nukes relationships.
I can take a lot of shit, but I just don't want to be lied to. And that's why I prefer ENM/poly. People are gonna do people things, but letting my partner have that outlet, not feeling trapped in any way, is (in my experience) critical to keeping the flame alive.
Adding my voice to the chorus of thanks.
It takes a lot of courage to do the work. And effort. It’s not easy. Sharing resources helps to light a path for others who might be struggling in the dark.
Thank you for this. My wife left about a week ago. It blindsided me, but I'm hindsight I could have seen it. She's been throwing herself into her work for the last 4 years. I felt the lack of love, but never had the tools to express my needs. Whenever we talked about it, we ended up fighting.
In hindsight, if someone is not feeling love in a marriage, why would they stay?
Like you, we also always thought we had the tools to work things out.
I've learned now that in our relationship she has been anxiously attached -- it makes sense now why I could never have the "rational" kind of conversation I wanted with her.
Meanwhile I have been avoidant or possibly fearful-avoidant. What I thought of as "taking a break in an argument when things get heated" to go independently deal with my emotions must have been painful for her, and she would then chase me. End result: neither of us was able to regulate our emotions.
I've was open to ENM in our relationship, but she was against it, so we never persued it. So it stings even more seeing signs that she's been cheating on me. Though I guess, even in ENM, why would you keep seeing a partner whom you feel no love for anymore?
In the last week I have been cramming attachment theory, Gottman, NVC, trying to have some idea of what the hell happened. Now I realize that if I don't work on myself, I will bring all of my problems to any future relationship. I'm only at the very start of the journey, and every day is still painful -- our relationship lasted 15 years, and that can't be unwound quickly.
There is sense of closure and ability of growth in understanding the whys. Explicitly working to avoid carrying forward the injuries is a huge step. As you probably already read in Gottman: the best couple's therapy is individual therapy. Empathy by way of anecdote: when I was reading Levine's "Attached," so many of the example conversations had me feeling like "Were y'all in the room when we were arguing?!"
I'm serious about the being a sounding board/ear. I hope you find inner peace sooner rather than later.
DM'd, thank you friend.
Understanding and addressing attachment styles is one of the most rewarding gifts to give yourself. It's hard, messy, necessary work. I'm glad you invested in yourself and cultivated a healthier relationship.