First time drinking Kava this week. Ordered a whole kg of Vanuatu Kava from TradeMe - it's good stuff.

Out of all the 'sedatives' I've tried, such as alcohol and cannabis - Kava produces the best sleep, by far. Without a hangover the next day. Even seems to have anti-depressant qualities. Liver damage can be a concern for heavy users - but that's usually because they mix it with alcohol.

Been to Hamilton today with my mum. Ordered some sushi, and passionfruit bubble tea. Had an episode of existential dread while sucking on the little bubbles at the bottom of my cup..

Now that I realize it - the best years of my life were the times that I spent playing video games, and nerding around on Discord servers, in my 20s. It's only now that I decided to cut down on my social media usage, that I'm having an identity crisis, and sort of wondering what to do with my life. I've seen the rise and fall of people like Boogie2988, Nikko Avocado, Andrew Tate, Logan Paul, etc. and it sort of spooked me just how anti-social people can become when they spend too much time online, immersed in internet culture.

It's a catch 22, but oh well? I'm only 30. I can still salvage what little youth I have left.....