Melbourne

I have an interview for a role next week that's paying about 25% more than my current role and would suit me way, way better.

Cancelled all weekend plans so I can prepare.

The recruiter reached out to me oddly enough. I didn't even apply.

The mood at work has really soured. I didn’t post last night because I wanted some time to think it though and not just to scream into the universe, but I might have a problem.

New KPIs went into effect this week, and they’re a big increase - what was, before, “a really solid day’s work, excellent effort, you’ve done a bit better than planned” is now considered “just about barely adequate, maybe”. Not good, just minimally adequate.

We’ve been busting our collective ass to keep churning through work as everything changed around us. The “new benchmarks” are based on productivity we were flogging ourselves for, with the understanding that we could breathe once things stopped going bananas. We’re undermanned, senior members of the team have been seconded out to back up other departments, the system we use is old and breaking regularly…

Nope. Now the “busting your ass” productivity is a permanent requirement. Everyone hates it.

Me personally, I type with one hand. My right hand won’t do much of anything, so it’s all with my left. I can’t realistically get much faster at processing than I am…and the new benchmarks are set so high I’m only just scraping past them. If I have a day with particularly complex work, or any technical issues at all, I won’t make it.

I like my job. I’d quite like to be competent at my job, and I’d like to feel there was a realistic way for me to improve at my job.

At the moment, it doesn’t feel that way. My absolute best is now barely good enough, and I can’t see a way for me to get any better than bare minimum (and permanently worrying about being pulled up for low productivity) while still “only really being able to process work with one hand”.

Been in bed all day with my recovery friend.

Feeling better. Must have been one of those days I didn't get enough sleep fragments.

To the tradie next door taking a circular saw vertically to a brick wall right now..

You might want to use some eye protection.

Just a suggestion.

I've finished the cross stich I've been working on.

After taking the photo I realised I'd missed a few stitches, but I've fixed that now. Miss Meow approves (assuming trying to walk and roll on top of it is approval). Now I just need to figure out what to do with it.

beach pic

the biggest bluest jellyfish I' ve ever seen

The new smoking while walking on the street is vaping while walking. Just as disgusting and vape clouds linger for longer, so you're more likely to breathe in the second hand smoke. I made disgusted sounds and quickly walked past.

Melbcat asked for the door to open and she’s staring out the screen door at the birds 👀

Ughhh. I’m so tired and depressed it’s hard to do anything.

I wish I had energy to do things like drawing exercises. Maybe if I did them with music or a movie in the background but I am really struggling for motivation.

I've had so many hats on this week. The fun party animal, the loving wife and the attentive mother who follows her sick only child back into her bedroom with a can of Glen 20 demanding she does not emerge back out here without a good reason. I even delivered a plate of food to her like a prison warden.

Atleast tomorrow will be a nice day.

Just finished up a 7am client call (involved someone in the US so it had to be an early one) which I was a little anxious about. Also too early for my brain to be fully operational but I think it went well.

Forgot ADHD meds at home today. Sleep was yucky, hair is yucky, skin is yucky, mind is yucky. But I am here til 6 today. I shall survive. Somehow my resting heart rate stays around 100 even when I wake up and haven't taken the meds yet.

I'm excited to complain to the psychiatrist next week.

Well, I came across a dead bird of prey in the city (looks like an owl?). Likely a natural death I suppose, but a bit surprised Agriculture Victoria didn't seem to want to at least check it out. Wrong suburb to be concerned? Hopefully a fox comes along and cleans it up.

Any advice on finding a good panel beater? There's heaps around but how do I tell dodgy bros from legit good quality peeps?

I just had a super frustrating run in with a concrete planter at the local shops (weird height, stupid pointy corner, completely in my blind spot, I stuffed the angle and dented the back door) 😭

I'm so flat today. Barely staying alert for work.

This weekend is yet another experiment adjusting the pill so I can get some sleep.

If this doesn't work I honestly don't know what else to do.

Edit: took day off.

Tis a chilly morning kids. Wrap up warrrrm.

I put my water bottle down at work and now I can't find it. I'd like to think someone came across it and moved it somewhere, I don't think I've misplaced it myself.

It's a work one, so no big deal, but now I need to find another water vessel for my desk.

The Dillinger Escape Plan are playing tonight and tomorrow. I'm hoping to get out and watch them tonight. To me they're one of the best and most influential bands in the past couple of years. Such a distinctive style and nothing comes close to them, even now

Toe just above the joint. Don’t know if it was from yesterday or today.

Ate a snack which was more filling than I thought.

I hope it doesn’t ruin my plans for dinner.

Stripping the walls of the basement brewery and oh lord i am a fan of coveralls. Big fan. Less of a fan of standing in my shorts on back step in winter while bundling contaminated clothing for washing, but still. Coveralls. Yes.

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