Unsure what radical forgiveness entails, but don’t forget to forgive yourself and show yourself patience and gentleness. We are all human and make mistakes. You’re doing the best you can do and that’s always admirable. Cheers.

I did the same thing! I had to move my office from the basement to upstairs, so I had a project to work on. I made super short, simple lists for what to accomplish every day. The "big rocks" method, aka list the 3-4 big tasks you absolutely need to accomplish, and a few smaller tasks that need to get done but not necessarily today (The analogy is filling a bottle with big rocks before putting in sand/smaller rocks). That way I can focus on the big tasks while still having some small distractions to keep me "entertained."

Congratulations on having clarity when it comes to diagnosis! I hope it's helpful to have a name for the beast.

What you are describing sounds like a pretty typical response to stimulants for someone with ADHD - you feel calmer rather than more wired. The silence can be deafening at first... I remember sitting there thinking "what now?" I'm not sure how long it took me to get used to it - I remember loving the feeling of inner calm almost immediately. I felt way more focused, and like I could prioritize and order things in my head, which I cannot do without meds. I could "map out" my entire day in my head, which was unheard of before.

Keep in mind that this dose may not be a therapeutic dose for you (that's a dose that takes away symptoms to the point where they are completely gone or barely noticeable), and you may need to go up or even change meds. I just want you to have realistic expectations that the first med you try may not be exactly right. Here's hoping that you find what works fast!