Started by going through the official system, went diy after they went from treating me bad to horrible. And it honestly gave me a lot of confidence to not feel like I depend on those assholes anymore, even if I go back later. It still broke me a bit that I no longer trust doctors.
Maybe you can get a new assessment with a different doctor, if you still want that?
Where does "it used to work, but now it doesn't, and I don't understand how it could ever have worked" fit in?