galactic

so i (13f) am friends with nadya (14f). i desire a connection with her and i’ve noticed i get jealous when nadya does things like touch her attachment’s arm (she develops attachments).

i want someone to connect with me like that. lately, i’ve been having dreams about her. nadya has insomnia, so in one, she called me on the phone and told me (after i told her to get a doctor’s appointment) that she slept a full 8 hours and thanked me for the advice.

nadya gives me eye contact, listens to me, and is very sweet to me in my dreams. i even went to her house, which i notice is a common dream i have with people i’m “in love” with.

i haven’t been to her house in two years because she’s so busy. i can’t believe i feel THIS way about the girl i used to be jealous of. (she used to be rude to ppl and i was jealous bc she dated my crush at the time.)

when nadya tells HER she loves her, it makes me kinda wish she was like that w me but idk if i just desire connection or what

I had a girlfriend who was usually quite nice, but she mostly had internalized homophobia, thought she was better than everyone else and "one of the good ones".

when someone says “i’m not homophobic, i have an lgbt friend”, she was the friend in question.

anyway, at least we broke up, because she was seeing a guy behind my back, leaving my texts on read, and seeing him? so i think she cheated, even tho she “apologized”.

she also seemed edgy and “hated” everything. yeahhhhh…

as a teenager, i know about two people (ages 13 and 14) who snore. usually, i don’t come across this, so i was wondering how common/normal it is.

people have told me that snoring at that age is not normal and a sign of sleep apnea.