To me, in my 20s, I was treated as I didn't know shit about anything (which is kind of true) and in my 30s I realized that being older doesn't mean people know their shit.

It shifted my perspective on the whole world and created that existential crisis.

I am not yet in my 40s, but I am comfortable with being a blip in the world and in the universe.

My only existential gripe right now is dealing with the thought of if I will survive one of my kid, or if I will die before they are in their 20s.

I am trying to be the best for my family and friends, and enjoy the process. Some people have a life changing event that shift their life around, but for most of us, the change is gradual until a few months/years later, you realise where you are. And at that point, you can decide whatever you want to do with that information.

And you know what's funny in all that? People like me will try to tell you what you should do in your situation, like people tried to do with me. But every person process events and emotions differently so you should definitely ignore whatever I say and what other people say if it doesn't make sense to you.

I might as well be a bot to you and that's all the same.