i cast str to int

no

remember kids: if an intrusive thought tries to enter your head, just say no; they cannot legally enter without your consent

You are now breathing manually. Take that, OP!

This makes me happy, not giddy, not excited, but there's something waiting for me that's absolutely incomprehensible.

Twenty years ago it would've kept me up at night and made me cry silently into my pillow.

Many years ago I noticed I'd get those thoughts when I stayed up too late into the morning wasting my time away, and I would panic and spiral, but when I woke up I'd barely have memory of those thoughts.

Now when I stay up to late and I get those thoughts I know it's time to go to bed, I just accept that they come, and I know that they'll be there, they just don't bother me. Very much like my eventual demise.

If they're intrusive you probably haven't had enough time to contemplate them. Live with them a while and you'll find them to be another part of existence, and they'll make you appreciate your existence, no matter how temporary, even more.

And don't ever believe anyone who says they know what happen to them/you the moments following your demise, they only hope to make your time with this existence benefit themselves.

Haha, but my only intrusive thought is that the wizard cat is a cute chonker

We all dead fuck it

Make an intimidation check with your spell casting ability.

Three hundred lives of men I have walked this earth, and now Trump claims aliens want to eat me? WTF?

Hell yeah 😎

take a moment to consider your own mortality

I’m pretty glad that I don’t have to keep doing this forever…

Good.
I have consisted it.
Now what?
Don't leave me hanging!!

(But absolutely do not make me consider others mortality - I get super depressed either by the lack of it or the inevitability of it (for the very select few).)