Asklemmy

My wife has been sick with a persistent respiratory infection for six weeks. I have a shoulder injury. We haven't been staying on top of the cleaning. We finally admitted that the house smells like one of those caves you age cheese in, and booked a cleaner to put it back in good shape so we can just maintain it going forwards.

Last night, at my wife's insistence, we tidied the house from top to bottom and wiped down the flat surfaces so the cleaner wouldn't arrive to a messy house. 😟

In her defence, she kinda saw the irony of it.

Hmmm. I wouldn't exactly call it a waste of money (yet) but my current smartwatch. It's not bad or anything it's just.. not that useful. The fact that I have to charge it often, doesn't make it better

I was young and didn't know how to say no....

Timeshare.

Taxes.

I wouldn't mind if they went to something other than the military and ICE

Star Citizen backer bundle that was supposed to get me an art book, USB key, and a few other things. Will never get it even though they made over 1 billion dollars

Music from Microsoft when they had the store and original DRM. They later shut it down and on newer Windows had no way to restore your DRM keys, so the music was useless/locked. Their support basically said "oh well". Eventually I got around the DRM by an ancient version of Roxio CD burner, somehow because it came out before MS DRM it just read the track and burned it to CD, there was no DRM checking I guess

every . single. car.

Destiny 1 and 2. I should have learned my lesson with the first game, but the hype train picked me up anyway.

Drugs, including nicotine.

Steam summer sale, and yet I fall for it every year. Doom collection still sitting in my library collecting dust.

Kerbal Space Program 2 as an Early Access game on Steam. Take Two poached developers those that worked on KSP 1 and then laid off the entirety of Intercept Games, the studio that they made for KSP 2. Even though it's not being worked on anymore, you can still get it on Steam for an eye-watering €50, which was exactly what I paid (before the layoff happened, on day 2 of Early Access). This was after I had great experiences with other Early Access games like ULTRAKILL and Satifactory, so I thought that a company like Take Two wouldn't fuck the pooch that hard. It's playable, the graphics are neat, the music is very nice, and they did manage to add the science mode before it all went to shit, but I'm sad that the promised two other solar systems, planet colonization, resource extraction, automation and multiplayer will probably never be added. That is, unless someone else buys up the project and actually finishes it.

$1000 x86-64 Linux tablet. Turns out, I didn't really need it, and it's too techy to sell to anyone in my neighbourhood, so it's just collecting dust.

All games bought outside of GOG

My ex

6 years of using bottom-of-the-barrel laptops because I wanted to buy new. Not to mention the time wasted "optimizing" them, working around their quirks, and spending a whole day fitting a riveted-in keyboard that was never meant to be serviced. If I had the foresight to buy a used business-grade laptop for $200 when I started, I might as well have daily driven it to this day.

Rent, but I can't afford to save up towards my down payment because I have to spend it on rent

My life.

The college degrees I earned in an attempt to get away from a soul sucking career: Nursing. First mistake was getting a fucking bachelors degree in nursing. That is not neccessary, because an associates degree would be sufficient. In fact, nursing needs to go back to more on the job training in an apprenticeship style program, hopefully run by a union rather than just the hospitals like in the old days. This requirement to have a bachelors degree in nursing that many jobs have is bullshit, and it’s just an excuse to get H1-B Filipina nurses (who work their asses off for less than US citizens) imported en masse. My next mistake was earning a degree in nursing informatics, which hasn’t done shit for me and now I find myself in a job I’m stuck in because I’ve been away from the bedside for so long. My third biggest mistake was earning a MBA in a further attempt to get the fuck away from nursing. Right now, MBA holders can’t get the jobs they would typically qualify for because the market is saturated. And maybe I could have done a dual MBA/MHA (master in health administration) degree in order to become one of the suits in a health system that makes the problems for nurses worse.

Now I don’t know what to do, and I want to die. I am seriously looking at switching over to become an electrician, specifically for low voltage. One of my previous jobs which was informatics related, I worked with those guys for a while. The worst thing they have to do is pull cable through tight spaces and up steep heights. Rest of the time they are using fine motor skills to connect smaller wires to the devices, and then programming them. I think I could hack it. The problem is, in the USA, things are getting politically and economically unstable, and a nursing license in another western country is more of a golden ticket out of this shithole of a country than any apprenticeship. If I had to flee at the drop of a hat, I would have to start an apprenticeship from the bottom again. At least nursing gives me a lifeline, even though the longer I remain a nurse, the more likely I am to want to kill myself. Even my therapist has noticed that, and has told me to leave.