Nightmare on elm Street. That scene where he's walking menacingly down alley, his arms stretching so long so his metal fingers scrapping along alley walls... terrifying.
That might be a good description of xeno's paradox
Shoplifting. Lifting hubcaps. Forging checks.
Did a lot as a kid.
Once, no money for food. So posted to craigslist something about a broke dykes dinner. Bunch of fellow gay women showed up, each contributed one item. Memorable night. There was some whipping with green onions in the kitchen. One of the women told me (we were all out of jobs, struggling) that a straight guy would pay her $50 to throw tomatoes at him while he jerked himself off.
Gen x, i think, here. Sex alone does nothing for me. Nudity does nothing. I'm attracted more to people, subtlety, long, slow seductions.
Most sex I see in tv, movies, is ridiculous. Like, 2 people have been flirting for weeks. One day, chance meeting, they kiss. RIGHT THEN, right after the first kiss, they immediately start taking their clothes off.
Seriously, who does that?
Some of the best sex can be if you have your clothes on.
Also, too many fantasy TV shows have characters who can't touch other people cuz demon in them, physically touching someone means they'll lose control, whatever. So they go around miserable, horny, unrequited love and all that. Which to me shows failure of imagination. Sex can be imaginative, creative, so much variety, possibility. Phone sex, mutual self masturbation, why not work those options into the plot?
But no, in movies and TV, its almost always: kiss, clothes come right off, completely naked, always in a bed, orgasm in 5 minutes. Real life is way more complex than that.
Yes. Yes it does.
Mid twenties, I bought two items at a luggage store near the Castro in sf. One was a weekend bag for camping, or visiting another city, can hold 3 days of clothes. Another was a small bag for daily use. Lesbian here, I don't carry purses, just bags the size of purses, way more functional.
I'm late 40s now. Traveled, wandering, homelessness, camping, backpacking, have put those bags thru hell for over 20 years. They still look brand new. The small black bag, still use daily. I'm constantly astounded by what I can fit in it. It's like the tardis.
Since COVID, spraying lysol and febreze is WAY more prevalent. I've developed full blown MCS because of it. I'm now having trouble finding trash bags and toilet paper that isn't scented.
Oh yes. Adhd, autism here, so severe over stimulation, impulse issues. Also. Grew up in abusive, violent childhood, where the only conflict resolution taught me was to yell, scream, throw things, lose it. Took me years of therapy to to try to overcome. These are what helped the most, some I do daily.
Dbt, cbt. Focusing on chatter in brain, learning to control it. Various centering, grounding exercises, including
Narrating my actions. Now I'm opening the door, now reaching into pocket...
Close eyes, focus on each of the 5 senses in turn.
Close eyes, just move, without thought, I do this a lot, it looks kinda like Tai chi.
I have a lot of mantras, including:
Let go of the anger, let go of the hate. Don't become emotionally attached to an abuser. No assumptions, no expectations, no judgment. This is not all of me. Observe, describe, participate. I am both observer and observed.
I've learned anger can be useful. Helps recognize problem. Spurs to action. But it's self sabotaging long term. I don't like feeling out of control, consumed with hate. I don't enjoy hurting ppl.
Becoming a violent, out of control abuser, to me, is embarrassing. It's low class, uneducated, and I'm so much better than that. I try to learn from my mistakes, gain greater control over myself.
To be filled with hateful anger towards someone, that means they have power over me. It's a form of intimacy, commitment, and why would I expose myself , become that intimate with someone I don't like?
Ymmv.
Only tangentially related: Latin, the dead language, heavily tied into romantic, classical education. I recently found out that Latin in general wouldn't say, I did this, but instead, this was done. Less of an emphasis on individual agency. Fascinating aspects about linguistics, how thought, sense of self has evolved over millenia.
YES! it's so rare I find anyone else who's seen farscape. only tv show I wish I could see again for the 1st time.
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So far, new ideas are Buddhist podcasts, asmr videos, futurama and 90s batman. None of which I'd consider on my own. Thank you, internet, for randomly specific variety!